Perfectly Undone

Chapter 16: Three Little Words

Chapter 16||

Valentine's Day was just around the corner which meant I was meeting Bryant's family very soon. I still couldn't believe it, it seemed so surreal. But I knew he was a great guy which meant his family had to be amazing, right?

I was in Bryant's room getting ready for bed when he walked in, "You know I love you to pieces, but you've been at my apartment everyday this week. And you've barely talked to Celeste and Brooke as it is. So spill the tea, what's going on?" He smiled. I turned around and kissed him.

"Spill the tea, huh?" We laughed with each other and he started talking again. "Well there's this little girl, she's not little, she has to be thirteen. But I was on my phone for a second and of course my home screen is us, so she asked about you. But she said, '' spill the tea."

"Oh Bry, what am I going to do with you?"

He looked me straight in the eye and said, "You're going to spill the tea with me."

So I did. I talked about how Brooke came home with Noah and told me that she has a child. He asked me how it had made me feel and of course I said weird. She never talked to us about this kid, until now. I get the kid hadn't been adopted yet, but she gave her up for a reason. But at the same time she was sixteen. Which baffled me too, how had we not found out about a kid? I get she was trying to keep her a secret but why not tell us?

"So a child that nobody knew about? I've never heard that one before." Bryant smiles. I sit up and he follows me up. "I just don't get it Bry, how come she never did tell us?"

"It was emotional damage and being sixteen while finding out your pregnant isn't the best either. It was the right decision." He wrapped his arms around me. I felt lost right now, I didn't know why. I didn't feel at home, it felt that this feeling stayed with me.

"I think I need another therapy session Bry, I feel so lost right now. I'm even in your arms, I always feel at home in your arms."

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Bryant opened the office doors for me. I checked in and sat down one the comfiest chair in the whole office. Bry smiled at me and held my hand. He made me feel settled, that was important.

"Ellie, they're ready for you."

He kissed my hand as I got up and I really wanted to say those three little words. Was I ready to say them though?

I walked into Beatrice's room and it looked exactly the same. I like that she didn't change things up, it would've thrown me off. "How are you today?" She asked.

"Lost? I am allowed to say that?"

"You can say that." She got something out of her desk and passed it across the table. Twix, my favorite. "Thanks."

"Your welcome, but what seems to be the problem today. You seem more on edge today." She wasn't wrong, of course I felt more on edge. We were leaving tomorrow for California and Brooke.

"My friend spilled the beans and told us she has a child. I'm super worried about her and I'm leaving tomorrow for California with my boyfriend." Stress was streaming my body. I wasn't ready for any of this.

She asked about Brooke's child so of course I explained all I could. She came home one day with my guy best friend and told us she had a child. She was sixteen when she gave her up and now she regrets it. I know you can feel some regret towards giving your child up for adoption, but not this much. She was trying to give the baby a better life. I don't even know what she's trying to accomplish with Noah. "She probably wants her child back Ellie. She is trying to seem ready for one, so before you know it she'll ask you to move out, then ask for help cleaning the house. She's probably just using Noah so it looks like she has a boyfriend that will help. Try talking to her about it more, but right now I would give her some space."

She was probably right, but a little six year old running around our apartment probably wouldn't be best. Is she even ready for that big of a responsibility? This is coming from the girl that sleeps in and parties every night. I guess she would need to get ready for the parent scene.

"Ellie, I heard you talk about your boyfriend? When did this happen?"

"I met him at a coffee shop and he was full of himself."-I laughed a little, what happens if he was trying to be tough?-" Then Brooke and I went out one night and saw him again. We would text back and forth, then for christmas i went to Texas. It didn't go well. So he helped me. Then we finally went out for New Years." Just explaining that made me so happy.

"He seems super sweet. Are you glad you met him?"

"You could say that. When I came home from Texas I totally wrecked my car because I had a panic attack in the car and blacked out. So the one doctor recommended me to come here and talk because of what my friends told him. But once he left Bryant came in, he works at the hospital."

Beatrice's did not look impressed at anything I said. Instead she looked disappointed about everything. "You didn't tell me about this panic attack Ellie."

"I didn't want to reopen the wound. I almost had one last night and one when he said I love you." I whispered. She tilted her head and looked at me.

"Why did that almost trigger something?"

"My ex, he was abusive. He said I love you way too soon, but I took as he really did. He did lots to me. I don't like talking about it anymore. But when Bry said it I was just nervous. I told him that I wasn't ready to say it yet."

"And how did he take that news?"

"Quite well actually. He is the sweetest man I've ever met." I smiled.

"I'm glad to hear that. Our next session I would want to talk about Josh, but only if it's okay with you." I shook my head yes and made my way towards the door.

"Have a good day."

"You too!" I smiled and walked out of her room, twix in my hand, and my phone in the other. Bryant stood up and walked towards me, "How did it go?"

"Really well."

We walked out of the office and towards his car but before we got in I had courage. "Bryant, I love you." His face lit up.

"Could you say that one more time?" He raised his eyebrow and looked at me.

I giggled and complied, "I love you Bryant Williams"

"And I love you Ellie Jones."