Perfectly Undone

Chapter 35|| Should I Stay or Should I Go?

When I woke up the next morning the amount of texts I had on my phone was completely insane. Brett, Elijah, and Jacob had texted me all throughout the night telling me things. Brett and Elijah told me how my mom reacted when Bryant and I left. It surprised me and I had to think if this was something I ever saw my mom do, she cried in front of everyone. I guess she excused herself from the table, walked off to the bathroom, and then everyone heard a sob.

I tried thinking of time this actually happened with me in the room or if I ever heard anyone talk about my mom crying. It seemed so weird to know she expressed emotions other than being mad and embarrassed. When I read that text I had to keep reading it over and over again, I was in shock. Complete and utter shock, I left the message open and ran to the bathroom. I turned on the water again and took another shower. It was the only way I could get my head to clear.

Bryant and I were getting ready for the dinner. Brooke and Noah were going to be there, that's all I knew. I didn't know who else she invited because it's Celeste. I bet some obscure relatives were going to be there. Supposedly at the wedding tomorrow people from high school were going to be there. Celeste was in the middle class of popularity. So people knew her and she had connections, but when I would step into frame people would back off and forget about her. But she never left me for them and I was blessed for it. I probably wouldn't have lived through my senior year without her.

I settled for a black off the shoulder dress which made me look taller and skinny. Just what I needed. My hair was in curls and I had very little makeup on, it was much easier that way. But of course, in Bryant and Ellie fashion, we were running late. I could've sworn we were running on time but nope. So I sent Celeste a text and she understood.

For some odd reason right when I got in the car all my anxieties started showing up. Even after that one anxiety attack where the car was busted, I was able to drive. But today was different, I put my hands on the steering wheel and just couldn't. Bryant and I quickly changed spots, because he was catching on.

I guess I was nervous about talking to my parents in more detail about this. I knew they weren't thrilled and I knew I could never please them enough. It's something I would have to live with and I knew that now. You can't please everyone you meet. Or in my case, are related to.

When I heard the police sirens in the background, I knew we fucked up. Bry rolled his eyes and apologized to me before the guy walked up to the door. I wasn't upset because we were late, he had a reason that we were speeding. When I heard the officers voice I brought my attention over to Bry's window.

There he was. Blue eyes and blonde hair, he was still sporting his weird ass smirk. I knew one day I was going to run into him again, but I didn't expect to be pulled over by him. "Josh?"

He leaned down and looked at me. He hadn't changed one bit, he was still the same. Everything about him was the same. He didn't even look like he aged since that day I ran away, he still looked like a senior in high school. "Ellie?"

Bryant looked at me, eyes wide. "This is the Josh that hurt you?"

I couldn't look either them in the eyes. I didn't want to. I felt disgusted looking into Josh's eyes and I felt like I betrayed Bry. "Where are you two heading?"

I looked down and moved some hair behind my ear. "Celeste is getting married. Tonights her rehearsal dinner."

Josh slowly nodded his head. "So your brother decided to tie the knot?" Like the knots in my stomach? They are tied and I'm not okay right now.

Bry looked at Josh and scanned him. He clenched his jaw and looked down at my stomach. I didn't even realize till now that my hands were over my stomach. I was already in mamma bear mode. I started breathing faster. I looked at Josh and weakly smiled, "Do you need anything? Or did you pull over.."