Can I Call You Appa?

Ch. 6

Jin POV

"Alright." I said.

Why...Why am I doing this to myself? Why do I always agree without thinking? Why am I all of a sudden nervous? Was it because I would see Namjoon in his glorious hair wild, probably big shirt and sweats in the morning? Was it because he's literally standing so close to me right now? I have no idea. All I know is that I'm nervous as hell.

I announced to the twins that they would be spending the night here and they cheered. Namjoon got his boys into the bath and then shortly after I got my two into the bath. After they all had their baths, they insisted on going into Yoongi's room and race some cars.

It was a saturday so I didn't mind. I usually let the twins stay up until 9:00 instead of 8:00 on weekends anyway. It makes them think they're getting away with something. It was now 8:30 and Namjoon and I were sitting on the couch while Jungkook drank his formula.

"I can't believe Hobi thought it was a good idea to color your children." Namjoon said, shaking his head.

"Taehyung is very easily convinced to do things and if Tae's doing it, Jimin usually follows. It's cute but it makes me worry sometimes." I replied, grinning in amusement.

"Oh man! I forgot that you're still in your regular clothes. I have some sweaters and sweatpants you can borrow if you'd like? I'd hate to have you sleep in those!" He randomly exclaimed, running upstairs before I could protest.

Me wearing his clothes!? Good god....he seriously is going to be the death of me. I looked at Jungkook who eyed me as he nursed his bottle. I shook my head at him and pat his head gently.

"Your father is definitely something, Jungkook." I told him, smiling at him.

I feel like a little school girl. My stomach is in knots, my hands are clammy, my heart is racing, and I feel like I'm sweating. Is this what love feels like? It's definitely not a bad feeling, but holy shit can it cool off?

I bet he doesn't feel the same, I bet he's just being nice because I'm a guest. He's probably not even gay or bisexual, I mean how could he be gay he has three kids!? I'm getting my hopes up for nothing.

I can imagine waking up next to him, cuddling him, playing with his hair, making him smile and laugh, seeing his dimples everyday, and seeing him play with the children. I can see me kissing those gorgeous lips and snuggling with him on a sunday morning before the kids wake up. Fucking hell so this is love.

I never felt this about my ex wife. Yeah I loved her but I wasnt in love with her. I never had these kind of butterflies or nervousness when I was around her. But with Joon? It's like everything is hitting me all at once. Honestly? I don't want it to stop.

"Here are some pjs! They may be a bit big on you, I hope that's okay." Namjoon stated, snapping me out of my thoughts.

He handed me a baby blue sweater that looked huge even for my big shoulders (worldwide shoulders man) and some grey sweatpants. I shyly took them and went to the bathroom to change.

I changed and holy crap the sweater was big on me. It covered over my hands but the length was fine, just really baggy. It even smelled like him too, god I feel like a little school girl right now. Lord. Help. Me.

I emerged from the bathroom and set my clothes by the door so I wouldn't forget them. I looked over and Joon had a light blush on his face. He quickly averted my gaze and looked at Jungkook who was now sleeping. He gently picked him up and hummed a little tune to him. He held up a finger and took the baby to his nursery.

Me, being the nosey person I am, quietly followed him. Mainly because I wanted to check on the twins. I peeked into Yoongi's room to see them all quietly coloring in some coloring books. I grinned and went to Jungkook's nursery where I saw something that made my heart melt.

Jungkook had woken up and wanted to be held. Namjoon was holding him close and patting his back, having him look out the window. I leaned against the door frame and listened quietly to what Namjoon was telling him.

"Those sparkly things in the sky are called stars and the bright circle is called the moon. Your mommy loved the moon and stars before she left us. I promise you that I will find someone so much better for you to have in your life besides me bunny." Namjoon said, kissing his head. "They will love you so much, but not as much as I love you. They will take care of you and play with you and be with you through everything just like appa."

My heart exploded, pieces went everywhere. Who knew Namjoon was this sweet? I knew he loved his kids very much but holy shit this is a whole new level. I wonder if he used to talk all of his kids to sleep. His voice is very soothing and deep, his kids must love hearing him talk.

Jungkook had a fist full of his shirt and buried his face into his fathers neck. Namjoon kissed his forehead gently and rubbed his back as he continued to talk nonsense to the baby. Well, it wasn't all nonsense, he told some random stories about his first two boys as babies and then talked about how stars were formed. It was endearing to witness this bonding time.

I knew Namjoon worked a lot, a lot more than I did. I also knew he tried to spend as much time with his boys as he could. Yoongi told me all the time how his father would sit out in the living room to write his reports so he could see the boys. He also told me how he always made the effort to spend quality time with each of them. Jungkook was usually on Wednesdays when Namjoon was off, Yoongi was when Hoseok took his naps on the weekends with the baby, and Hoseok was when Yoongi was doing his homework.

"Daddy?" Jimin whispered, pulling at my pant leg.

I jumped and looked down, seeing him cutely rub his eyes. I picked him up, blushing lightly since Namjoon clearly knew I was standing there now.

"Sleepy Minnie? Come on, lets get you to bed." I quietly answered, kissing his forehead lightly.

He snuggled into my neck while holding me tightly. I peeked into Yoongi's room and saw Taehyung asleep cuddling Hoseok in the bed while Yoongi was struggling to stay away.

"I sweep Yoonie?" Jimin asked, pointing at the eldest boy.

Yoongi nodded and made room for him. I laid him down and made sure he was comfortable. I gently kissed both of their heads, moved over to the other two and did the same, then left the room so they could rest. I went back out into the hallway and saw Namjoon putting Jungkook into his crib.

"How long were you standing in the doorway?" Nmajoon asked, joining me in the hall.

"Since you talked about how you were going to be with him through everything.." I sheepishly replied.

He chuckled and grinned at me, "Well, I hope you enjoyed the stories. It's how I can get him to sleep at night. It soothes him. I'm going to go tuck my boys in, I'll be back."

I was going to go to the living room, but I decided to peek into Yoongi's room. Namjoon quietly arranged the toys and put them away. He then placed fallen limbs and blankets more secure over the four. He gently kissed each of their heads and watched them for a second. He smiled and then came back into the hallway with a grin on his face.

"What?" I asked, grinning back.

I could tell he was holding something back, but I didn't want to push him. He shook his head with the goofy grin still on his face. I followed him back into the living room where we both had a glass of wine.

We stayed up until midnight talking about random things and it was wonderful. We talked about our exes, the kids, our personal lives, just everything. We laughed and his laugh is incredible. He smiled a lot and was such a good listener. By the time we departed for bed my heart kept racing. I felt so many emotions that I thought I would never feel again.

Honestly? I'm falling for Kim Namjoon, and I am falling hard and fast.