Can I Call You Appa?

Ch. 9

Namjoon POV

It's been two weeks since Jin and I have had any sort of conversation. How can I blame him? I probably fucked it all up by opening my mouth about Jimin's request. Him and Yoongi were still very close and Yoongi still went on for ages about him. That was good but I felt sad.

Deep down I wanted Jin to give Jimin permission to call me appa. I wanted him to say he already did love me because I already loved him too, I love him a lot. I know it's early but I can't help myself.

There's things about my last relationship I wanted to tell him so bad. I want him to love me as much as I love him. I wasn't just lonely or confused, I was very sure of my feelings. I want this, I want him. I want our kids to become brothers and us to become one big family. I want us to be happy.

Hoseok has been asking constantly for Jimin and Taehyung. He's been on my case since they left about when their next sleepover is going to be. Yoongi has been asking when they can play knights and dragons again with the twins. As sweet as it was, I couldn't bring myself to explain my feelings to them because they wouldn't understand.

Holding Jin that day felt so right. My heart fluttered and I felt so warm holding him like that. Everything felt right, he feels like home. His smile, his laugh, his personality, just everything about him feels like home. His boys are just so cute and I want to call them my sons too. I want to hug them and kiss them goodnight, I want to tell them that they're my boys, I want to tell them I love them. I want them to be my boys too.

I loved my three sons with everything in me and I would do anything for them. I want them to be happy and if Jin and the twins make them happy, well I'll do anything I can to get us together. I want this so bad, I want Jin so bad. I want to hold him, I want to kiss him, I want to hold his hand, I want him to be mine. I want to wake up to him every morning in my clothes, I want cute little dates, I want the cheesy jokes, I want everything with him.

"Appa? Are you listening?" Hoseok said, snapping me from my thoughts.

"Huh?" I asked.

"I asked if we can go see Yoongi now? I wanna go home and play monster trucks!" My 4 year old exclaimed.

I nodded my head and climbed out. I got Jungkook out of his carseat and grabbed Hobi's hand. I took them both inside where we went down to Yoongi's classroom. Hobi was excited to see Jin again and was eager to see if he had the twins with him this time.

Hoseok adored playing with Jimin and Taehyung. He thought Jimin was so cute, which he is, and also thought Taehyung was so fun to play games with. The three of them playing together is absolute chaos, but as long as they're happy I'm cool with it.

I heard Hoseok squeal and two little voices start cheering as I walked into the classroom. Jimin and Taehyung were hugging Hobi and grinning at him. Jungkook heard the noise and started to cheer along too. I smiled at them and saw Taehyung's eyes light up.

"Joonie! Kookie!" Taehyung exclaimed, toddling over to us.

I crouched down and hugged him gently. Jimin saw and came over, I also gave him a gentle hug. I stood back up and balanced Jungkook on my hip as I looked around the room.

"Where are your daddy and Yoongi?" I asked.

"Daddy wen' uhhhh potty!" Jimin said.

"Yoonie wen'....don't know." Taehyung added.

As if on cue Jin walked in with Yoongi in his arms. I gave a shy smile and he returned it.

"Hey, Yoongi snuck out to the nurse's office where he fell asleep. I hope you dont mind, he's been asleep for about 20 minutes. Poor thing played and learned extra hard today." Jin explained, showing Yoongi's face.