My Family, My Life "Sequel To His Butterfly"

Chapter 7: Ready Or Not

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Avery's POV…

My hands tremble fiercely as I stood looking at an unrecognizable image staring back at me in the mirror. This very face didn't seem to match the person that I was on the inside. 

Yes, she has the same features as me but the cold, distant look hidden in her eyes is a huge contrast to the old me. This cloned image of me doesn't like to do any of the things that I once loved to do, for example, talking to my friends or pissing Reese the fuck off. 

All she wants to do is stay locked up in the close confinement of this humongous house. On top of all that my guilt of the pain and stress that I've been piling on Reese ever since I've awakened is eating me alive and taking a terrible toll on my sanity.

I've put so much pressure on Reese until he finally walked away from me. He hasn't come to the house once since leaving two weeks ago or bothered to call me, and that's what hurts the most.

I desperately wanted him at home but how could I ask him to come back when I'm constantly falling prey to the one thing that pushed us to this point. These nightmarish images plague me at the worst possible moments. 

They always seem to pop up out of nowhere when I feel like I'm finally ready to move on with Reese. I knew in my heart that he had nothing to do with what happened to me but my brain refuses to listen to reason. These two major parts of me were in an epic war with each other. Until I get them under control, I can't bring myself to ask him forgiveness or to come home.

I feel like I've become a burden to everyone. This isn't a life that I want to live in forever. My kids deserve more than what I'm offering them. The man that loves me even with all my flaws deserves more than I've been giving him. I want to do more than survive, I want to be happy, to be loved by the man that has given me his all. 

“Avery honey are you ready to go? I hear my mom ask standing on the other side of the closed bathroom door.

“I'm almost done mom,” I called out to her as I continued to look at my reflection in the now foggy mirror. 

“I'll be in the kitchen,” Mom responds.

The closer D-Day approaches I began to find it harder for me to keep my mind preoccupied with something other than the terrible images that instantly paralyzes me with fear. I've been dreading this day since finding out about me having to go to court to face the monster of my nightmares. The only silver lining in this was that I would be gifted with seeing my handsome man's face once again. 

I knew without a doubt that he would be there standing by my side. This was the one sure thing that I could place my life on the line for. The sole reason that I was even able to get out of bed to face this terrible day was all because I knew that Reese was going to be there to protect me.

With that in mind, I walked out of the room leaving my fears behind me. “Mommy, mommy, mommy.” I hear as soon as I enter into the living room coming from Alexia and Asher.

“Good morning my beautiful babies,” I call out with a slight chuckle in my voice when they both hug my legs tightly. I for one could never ever get tired of waking up to this kind of greeting.