september || jjk

36.

15 years ago

Sad day.

It was a sad day.

I was supposed to be making snowballs, playing in the snow and enjoying the first snow day we've had in ages. Instead, I was sitting by myself on our doorstep because, as always, Ji-Hyun couldn't make it back home in time to play with me.

I used to cry when Ji-Hyun didn't come home, but now I've grown numb to the feeling. It's a surprise when he does come home before midnight. Ever since he started that job, he's been on his own, not bothering about his family.

We were close when he was still young, though now he's just involved in his own things.

I was mad at him, but I knew that this was expected. He does have a super fancy job, and he is really popular; I guess he doesn't have time for us anymore. That's fine, mama said, as long as he's happy and earning well for the family.

I spot a pile of snow, not too far from me in our garden. My eyebrow raised up on its own as I contemplate on how it could've gotten there. All the snow around there is even, except for that large pile right smack in the middle of it.

Curiosity getting the better of me, I stand up, walking over to the pile of snow. I crouch down, eyeing it carefully. It looked like there was something underneath it. I lay my hand flat on top, and then press it onto the snow, my skin tingling at the cold feeling. There was nothing inside, it was just a plain old pile of snow.

"You-You crushed my snowman!!"

I look up at this voice, instantly removing my hand from the snow. I see a little boy, around my size wearing a huge puffy, blue colored jacket. He wore a light blue beanie on his head, and the most dark blue shoes I'd ever seen. His cheeks were flushed pink, a pout evident on his face and his tiny hands balled into fists. His eyebrows furrow as he shouts again, "You crushed my snowman! Why?!"

I shake my head at these accusations, knowing that I had not crushed his snowman. "It was like that when I saw it! I just wanted to check if there was anything inside it or not!"

His pout deepens and he bends down, picking up a handful of snow. He makes it into a ball, and then, with no hesitation, throws it at me. It hits me right on my chest and I gasp. I look back up at the boy, who now has a smirk plastered on his face. I clench my jaw in anger, lifting up some snow myself and then throwing it at him.

Soon after, we both ended up in a massive snowball fight, all conflict behind us as we laid in the snow, laughing and smiling. I made a new friend.

Once the laughter dims down, he asks me in his squeaky voice, "What's your name?"

I smile, "Y/N."

He nods, staring at the sky, "That's a nice name."

I turn sideways, staring at him, "What's your name?"

He begins, "Ka-" He then stops himself, an ounce of hesitation passes through his expression before he finally mumbles out a small, "You can just call me K."

I raise an eyebrow, "K? So your name is literally the letter K?"

He nods, "Yeah, I guess it is."

-

"Hey!"

I turn around, smiling wide when seeing K. I was surprised that he made it to my birthday party, he claimed his parents never allowed him to go out. I run over to him, enveloping him in a hug. We both pull back and he shouts, "Happy birthday, Y/N~ I can't believe you're 11 already! Though I'm still two years older than you!" He sticks his tongue out at me.

I roll my eyes, pulling him inside the house, "I'm so glad you made it! There's cake, pizza and other snacks! Eat whatever you want!"

K smiles, shaking his head, "No, I'm only here to see you; I have to go now though. My mom's gonna get mad if she finds out I snuck away to see you."

I pout, "That's not fair, K! It's my birthday and you aren't even gonna stay for the whole party! I'm not talking to you."

He shrugs, "Well then I guess you don't want your present."

My ears perk up at this and I smile, "You got me a present?"

He nods, "Of course I did." He then proceeds to go back outside, then walking back in with a cage in his hands.

I raise an eyebrow, "That's huge! What's inside?"

K sets the cage down slowly before pulling the door open. A tiny dog runs out, jumping into my arms. I gasp, "No way! You got me a dog?!"

He nods, eyes turning into the shape of crescents as he smiled, "Yeah, I knew you wanted one so I did. His name is Bruno. I gotta warn you though, he's not a normal dog." He chuckles.

I clutch Bruno to my chest, smiling, "This is the best present ever. Thank you, K!"

His cheeks become slight shade of pink as he turns away, "No problem."

-

I was walking home from school when all of a sudden, I felt a weight pressing onto my neck. "Hey, Y/N!" K shouts, arm wrapping around my shoulders.

I smile, looking over at him, "Hey! You finished school early today?"

He nods, releasing me. He lifts his arm up, scratching his neck, "Yeah, the teachers were on my ass about the finals so I managed to escape faster."

I chuckle, "Last year of high school and you're still the same."

He snorts, "What about you? You're turning 16 in a week, that's gotta be exciting. Throwing a party?"

I shake my head, clutching onto the straps of my backpack, "Nah, I'm too old for that shit. Probably gonna binge watch some show. You in?"

He nods, "Yeah, I've got nothing better to do anyway."

I smile.

-

It was the day of my 18th birthday, and I was waiting by the park for K to come so we could go watch a movie or do something fun.

I turn around when seeing him approach, smiling. I walk over to him, hitting him on the shoulder. His expression was sad, I don't know what could've happened. I sigh, "You ready to watch a movie?"

He freezes, looking up at me, "Y/N... we can't do this anymore."

I raise an eyebrow, crossing my arms on my chest, "What do you mean? Do what?"

He sighs, gaze dropping down to the floor, "Be friends."

My face falls and so do my arms, "Why? What's wrong?"

He shakes his head, "You're just... not someone I wanna be friends with. I hate you. This friendship is over. I really hope I don't see you ever again."

And with those words, he walked away, leaving me standing in the middle of the park. I couldn't immediately register what had happened but when I did, I could not control the tears dripping down my cheeks. Was I that bad of a friend?

My first best friend, the first person I ever trusted, my first true love... gone in a heartbeat. All those years we spent together meant nothing to him, apparently. I was so unimaginably hurt. I spent the next few years of my life focusing on my studies, becoming a doctor and blocking this entire memory out of my mind completely. I made sure I wouldn't remember him, but I also made sure I wouldn't completely forget him. He was my first, after all. I loved him. But I guess he didn't love me.

-
A/N: I guess y'all are probably gonna beat me up now, since it's pretty obvious what's happening. put your guns down tho ayt, ain't nothing gonna happen to your number #1 ship...

...Bruno and Jungkook.

LMAO IM KIDDING BUT THAT WOULD BE BOMB

anyways
TAKE CARE OF YOURSELVES LOVES

love,
nim <3