Katya's POV
I couldn't sleep. I didn't want to sleep. There was a lot on my mind, too much on my mind. I looked at my phone, the bright light breaking through the darkness in my room. It was going on 2am. I needed something to relax my body, something to turn off my brain. I sent a quick text and threw the covers off of me. I got out of bed and pulled on a pair of sweatpants.
I sat on the front steps outside, waiting. "You looking for somebody?" I looked up and smiled at Shea as she walked in the gate.
"Hey."
"What's going on?" Shea sat next to me and pulled out a blunt from her pocket.
"I hung out with Trixie yesterday."
"I feel like that isn't all." I gave Shea my lighter and watched as she lit the rolled paper. She immediately gave it to me. "You need it." I took a long puff and held it in for a bit before blowing it out.
"I kissed her."
"Why?"
"She told me to."
"So, if someone told you to jump off of a building, would you?"
"If something I have always wanted is at the bottom then maybe." Shea chuckled as she took the blunt. "I'd jump..even if it hurt a little. Which is exactly what is happening."
"What do you mean?"
"It hurts Shea. I know that I left instead of working it out and talking. I prepared myself for it, the heartbreak you know? But shit you can't fully prepare I guess."
"How do you feel about coming back now?"
"I mean, I guess I'm okay. I mean..I hate knowing she's with Milk."
"We all do."
"I want her heart. I want her."
"Maybe try telling her that."
"But what if we're only meant to be friends? I don't want to drag her through the hurt again."
"You guys got hurt because you didn't talk."
"I guess." Shea and I sat in silence for a little, the sounds of the night giving a soft melody to the darkness.
"Katya?"
"Yeah?"
"Did you talk to Milk?"
"When?"
"That night."
"Why?"
"Did you?"
"I mean, he came by."
"What happened?"
"We just talked."
"Katya.." I sighed and leaned back on my elbows, looking up at the moon.
"He told me about a conversation she had that day with you and Kim. I remember every single word. 'I heard Trixie talking to Shea and Kim. She isn't happy Katya. She told them that she wanted a relationship but not with you because you don't want that. So she doesn't want to waste her time. I am sorry Katya, I didn't want you both to get hurt.' He hugged me and told me that neither of us deserved to be unhappy." I took a deep breathe as I closed my eyes. Repeating those words back to Shea made my heart break all over again."I already had doubt about what was going on between her and I so that was just the nail in the coffin. It was never easy to think that maybe I was making Trixie unhappy. That is what made it a bit less painful to get on that plane, the thought that maybe she could be happy." I felt Shea put her hand on my shoulder. I lifted my head and looked at her. She had a small smile on her face.
"I can't tell you that what you did wasn't the best. We all say we'd do something one way when someone does it another. You did what you felt what was right for her. I'm not going to knock you for that but what I will do is tell you that she loves you. She loves you more than she could ever love Milk or anyone else."
"I know but maybe she could."
"Katya, she was happier with you than she is with Milk. Yeah, you guys weren't dating but she was still happy. Like I said, I can't tell you what to do but ju...just I'm here for you, both of you."
"Thanks Shea."
"Mhmm."
Shea and I spent another two hours, talking and just enjoying the cool breeze of the night. She left after I finally started yawning. I grabbed my phone and opened my messages as I laid in bed. I had a feelings that I still wouldn't be able to sleep. Spending the night with Trixie in my bed gave me a feeling that I just didn't have when I was alone.
Me:I know you're asleep but I can't sleep at all. I want you here with me. So bad.
I was surprised when I saw those three dots. Why was Trixie awake?
Pixie❤:Come see me then
Me: Can I?
Pixie❤: I wouldn't have said it if you couldn't
Me: On my way 😉
The drive to Trixie's house was always nice. I pulled into the Mattel driveway and texted Trixie that I was outside. She told me that the door was unlocked and that I could come inside. I smiled and got out of my car, walking to the front door. I walked inside and closed the door behind me, Trixie's mom was still home. Asleep but home. I made my way quietly up the stairs to Trixie's room. I knocked on her door and heard a soft 'come in.' Trixie was sitting on her bed, her beauty being highlighted by the moonlight. "Hey Pix."
"Hey."
"Why are you up?"
"Couldn't sleep. Will you lay with me Kat?"
"Of course." Trixie laid down as I took off my jacket. I crawled into bed next to Trixie. I was pulled by the soft smell of vanilla and roses, the smell of Trixie.
"Katya, will you hold me?"
"You don't even have to ask." I softly wrapped an arm around Trixie, enjoying the softness of her skin. "Goodnight Pixie."
"Goodnight Kat and Katya?"
"Yeah?"
"I love you...Is that okay to say?"
"The night was made for saying things that we can't say in tomorrow's light."
"Okay well, I love you."
"I love you too Pixie."
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Please Call Me Yours(Trixya)
FanficA Trixya love story? A sequel to 'I Called Her Stacy' It has been two years since Katya told Trixie to leave. Trixie has moved on, or so she wants everyone to think. She has stopped caring about the things she once held dear, school, cheer, even her...
