Recklessly (Lumity)

Chapter Twelve - Talk This Out

Amity's P.O.V

I awoke to a loud thud, startling me from my dreams. I sat up and looked over to where I heard the loud noise. A smile appeared on my face as I saw Luz on the floor with a book on her head. She blushed as she saw that I noticed her clumsy position. I giggled and wondered how in the world she ended up like that.

"Don't ask, this book just magically appeared on my head and I totally didn't slip and fall." Luz has always been clumsy and I found that absolutely adorable.

"Sure that didn't happen." I gave her a smirk and she blushed out of embarrassment and looked away.

After a couple seconds of awkward silence, I got up and helped her off of the ground. We stood there, looking at each other, not knowing what to say in this terribly awkward situation. I don't know if she hated me or just didn't like me, maybe she was okay with me now? I doubted it, but a part of me really hoped so.

"So...I just want to say thank you for comforting me last night." Luz looked up at me with her beautiful brown eyes. I couldn't read what she was feeling, whether she wanted me to not talk at all and just leave, or for me to stay and talk more.

"You're welcome, but this doesn't mean that we're okay. Not by a long shot." She gave me a stern look, answering the questions I had. She wanted me to shut up and leave this house as soon as possible.

"Yeah, I figured," her brown eyes were staring into mine, "I truly am sorry for pushing you away." I pulled my eyes away from her and stared at the ground, not wanting to look at the hatred she had for me.

"If you were really sorry, you wouldn't have pushed me away for the second time." Her voice was full of hatred now, no remorse or anything, just hatred.

"That was a terrible mistake on my behalf, I should've thought more about listening to my stupid father!" Luz looked at me confused as I smacked my head in anger. If I had just walked out of that door when he told me to the first time, maybe me and Luz wouldn't be in this situation.

"Just get out of here, please, I can't stand to keep looking at you." Now she's back to this, glaring at me and pushing me away. Of course I don't blame her, it's just hard to tell what was going on with Luz.

"Please just let me explain Luz." She sighed in annoyance and walked past me. She opened her door and pointed for me to get out of here before I made her more mad.

"I don't want to hear another word from you Amity, please just leave." She was begging me to go, to leave her alone. I almost walked out the door but I didn't want to lose her, not like this.

"No, I want to talk this out! Please just talk to me." Luz groaned, wanting so badly for me to just leave. There was a reason she didn't want to talk this out, and I had a feeling it was more than just her being mad at me. I may be wrong though.

"There's nothing to talk about! You hate me and I hate you, so that's it, you can leave now." She was keeping her distance from me, not taking even a step closer. I wanted to leave this whole hating each other thing behind us.

"There's a lot to talk about Luz. Like why you can't stand me, why you're with Zander, and why you won't just talk to me!" Her face grew in anger and I thought for a second that she was about to explode.

"Fine, you wanna know why I'm with Zander? Because he cares about me, he helps me with my anxiety, and he's an awesome person. Now I would like to know why you're so mad that I'm with him." I stumbled back a bit at what she wanted to know. I couldn't tell her why. If I told her the truth she wouldn't just hate me, she would be disgusted by me.

"He isn't this amazing guy, he has dark secrets and he is manipulative. You shouldn't trust him for even a second." This was the truth too, he isn't an amazing person. He played with people's hearts and treated them terribly.