Recklessly (Lumity)

Chapter Thirty - Mistake

Amity's P.O.V

The morning after me and Luz's fight, I stayed in bed for hours. I didn't feel like getting up, every muscle in my body ached, but not in pain. I was weak, physically, mentally, and emotionally. It never crossed my mind once that Luz would hurt me this bad. Sure, we've fought from time to time as friends but this felt different. She doubted me, she doubted us.

Walking out on her probably wasn't the best thing to do but I couldn't stay there. I couldn't handle people's stares or the crushing weight of Luz confessing her deep insecurities. She hasn't spoken to me. I wanted to be furious with her but something inside of me just couldn't be, I couldn't ever be really mad at her. After all that we've been through, I still love her and it hurts.

My stomach growled, alerting me that I was desperately hungry. So I got up and walked to the kitchen. Alexa's house wasn't too different from Drake's. It wasn't as fancy but it was still pretty big and spacious, making me feel safe and comfortable. She welcomed us with open arms which made me feel so grateful considering she was my therapist, things could've been weird between us but they weren't.

I looked through the fridge, hoping to find something that sounded good to me. Unfortunately, nothing stood out to me so I decided to get something in the city. Taco Bell was the closest thing to the house so I guess that's what I'm getting.

Without telling anyone, I went outside, feeling the sun shine on my tired and sad state. It was really nice to be out but a part of me wanted to run back inside and hide forever. That's what I would do at my old house, this was my new house though, I wasn't going to give in to my wants. So I settled on going to Taco Bell and made my feet walk there.

"Hey Amity, right?" I heard a familiar voice call out my name, but I couldn't quite place who it was. I turned to see the girl I wanted to avoid the most, Boscha. She smiled while running up to me, a coffee in her hand.

"Yeah, that's me. What do ya want?" I tried my best to sound nice yet assertive. I didn't want to talk to anyone, especially her. She's technically the reason that Luz had doubts about our relationship.

"Well, are you free to showing me around today? No one has talked to me yet, at least not more than one word. You're the only person that's noticed me and I want to become friends with you. If that's okay?" A part of me wanted to say no and just walk away, but I couldn't.

"Sure, I'd gladly show you around!" For some reason, my voice came out more enthusiastic than I intended. My face flushed with embarrassment but she didn't seem to notice, instead her smile grew and she clapped her hands together.

"Awesome, it really means a lot. I hope we can get to know each other." She stood by my side, waiting for me to move, do anything. I was stuck though, just frozen in this one spot as I stared at her.

"Um...I'm actually going to Taco Bell to get some food, you wanna come with?" Her eyes widened as she jumped up and down a bit in excitement. Her drink almost spilled but thankfully she noticed before the liquid could splatter out of the cup.

"Yes! I love Taco Bell so much, I would be honored to go with you." She bowed down, pretending I was some beautiful princess. I giggled with a small blush across my face. Maybe it wouldn't be so bad to get to know her.

We started walking in the direction of the restaurant. She talked about her home life a bit and about how she ended up here in Kansas City. The way she would passionately tell the story made me get lost in listening to her. I don't know why but I couldn't pull myself away from her. My gaze stuck to her like she was some fascinating art piece. She would glance at me, giving me a small smile before continuing her story.