More Than Words | Jordi GDL

thirty-seven

Matcha's POV

"Oh," saad ko at inabot kay Jordi ang ice cream na binili ko. He raise his head up and smiles plainly before getting it from my hand. "Thank you," he said and look at other people who are in this park. Naupo naman ako sa katabing swing and slightly push my self to move my seat. I glimpse at him at hindi parin na aalis ang lungkot sa mata niya.

We stayed their for 15 minutes at siya na mismo ang nag aya na umalis. We're currently staying at a park na malapit sa village just to ease his feelings. Hindi ako nag tanong kung anong nangyari and he did not also asks why I was there. After I sit beside him, we both went quiet. Wala kasi akong lakas na loob na mag tanong kasi alam ko na mabigat ang pakiramdam niya.

He suddenly looks at me kaya agad ko rin siyang tinignan. He raise his hand and I knew exactly what he wants to do. I also raise my hand and do our handshake. After doing it, ay bigla nanaman siyang nanahimik. I sigh and silently push him para gumalaw rin ang duyan niya. Eventually, it didn't move dahil masyadong mahaba ang legs niya sa swing so it prevented it from moving.

He looks back at me, wondering what I just did so I just response with an awkward smile. He chuckles and shake his head. I glance at his hand at nakitang hindi niya kinakain ang ice cream. I start to lick mine before looking back to his face.

Ang lungkot niya talaga. Masyado sigurong mataas yung expectations niya sa debut ni Althea. I want to talk to him about her pero ayokong mauna o mag push ng problema na 'to, knowing that he's still processing what happened.

I look at him from head to toe and my eyes starts to water. Talagang prepared siya. Nang malaman ko kasing may problema si Jordi sa venue, I assume that it was about a wardrobe malfunction, kaya agad akong pumunta sa bahay nila to get some tuxedo and other things from his cabinets. His Mom ask me kung ba't daw ako kumukuha so I just told her the theory I had and she said it's too bad kung sira yung tuxedo because Jordi ironed it four times and spend an hour the first time just for the coat.

He looks at his other hand before sighing. This may sound crazy for others or may say 'para ayon lang' but for him, it's not. It hurts him and that's not something we can label as 'lang' dahil hindi tayo yung nakakaramdam nung sakit.

I know that Jordi wants to have peace of mind right now.

I know him.

I will give him his space but I won't leave his side. I immediately smiles when he looks at me again. "Here," he said at inabot saakin yung ice cream niya. It's starting to melt. I nod and accepted it without hesitation. Ayokong ipilit sakaniya yung ayaw niya. He smiles back and look around again.

I look at my Ice cream and his ice cream that is now mine. Paano ko 'to mauubos?

Bago kasi kami umalis sa venue, Triston gave us some appetizers at dahil kami lang ang nasa table, at wala sa mood si Jordi, inubos ko yung appetizer. Dalawang plato 'yong binigay niya to, I guess—comfort Jordi, but in the end ako parin ang umubos.

I start to eat his ice cream first dahil tumutunaw na talaga ito. After 5 minutes, naubos ko na rin. I burp after that and I heard someone chuckling.

"What?" I ask Jordi, confused.

"You could've said no," he said, still chuckling. I smile and shake my head. "It's fine," I told him and starts to lick my ice cream. Tinignan ko siya with both of my eyebrows raise as he stares at me, confused yet glad.