Torn Between Lies

Chapter Twenty Nine~Pregnant

Why did two minutes feel like forever?

I sat on the floor of the restroom hugging my knees to my chest. How does this happen to someone like me, no nothing happened I'm fine.

Just keep telling yourself that.

I'm not pregnant.

I'm not pregnant.

What if I am?

NO! Don't think that! Not at a time like this...I'm broken out of my thoughts when I hear beeping from my test that I left on the sink. 

Everythings going to be okay. I reach up grabbing it, looking away at first. You can do this it's just one little look. I take a breath and look down at my results.

My mouth slightly opens, I can't help but stare and begin to tear up. What was I supposed to do hide in here? I had to tell the guys, we needed a plan, especially on what to do? I mean it made sense now, the headaches, mood swings, morning sickness. I clutch the test trembling and begin to walk out the door.

As I do, everyone looks up at me and my frightened face, watching me walk down the stairs "Hey?" starts Bruce.

"Spirit, you okay?" asked Tony.

I stop at the bottom step staring at the ground "Illisha..." starts Loki.

"I'm pregnant..." I whisper. They all look confused, mostly because they only heard a mumble "What?" asked Bruce.

I bite my lip looking up reviling the fact I was crying and trembling "I'm pregnant," I repeat louder. Stephen and Wong sigh because they already knew. Bruce looks at me like 'when the hell did that happen'. Tony's eyes were practically jumping out of his head. And Loki's jaw was open so wide it could touch the floor.

I sit on the stair and hold of the test to anyone who wanted to look at it. Tony rushes overtaking it and after looking at it throws it at the wall in frustration, Loki runs over quickly picking it up and looking to see for himself.

Tony looked at me "How? How far along are you?"

I sigh looking at Stephen "Doctor?" I ask.

"About a month in."

"I'm sorry a month?" asked Bruce shocked. 

How? When? Where? A month back would put me between.......the nights on Sakaar and the nights of the ship.....I really wasn't thinking! No protection, no nothing, Loki and I just kept going at it.

"That puts us between Sakaar and the ship," I say. Tony looks at me confused "I'm sorry so this time you did go to space and you did lose your virginity?" he asks. I nod.

Loki leans aginst the wall realizing what this meant "We....weren't careful enough." he stated. Tony looks at him in anger "I'm sorry...YOU! You did this and now we have even bigger problems to worry about!!!"

"Tony it's not Loki's fault," I say. Tony looks at me and sees the pleading look I give him "Fine..." he says and turns to Stephen "What do we do now?"

Stephen looks at me "Right now it's really up to you..."

"What do you mean?" I ask.

"Well do you want to keep the baby?"

My heart drops in my chest "You're talking about abortion?" I ask.

"Listen Illisha as you said sooner or later Thanos is gonna come after you, but I doubt it's gonna take him nine months."

I run a hand through my hair, I have a kid inside of me that has a chance at life, do I wanna take that way? "What do you want?" I ask Loki, who looks back at me confused "You're the one who put the child in me, you get a say...Do you want a kid?"

He walks over and sits next to me "Everything I've done...you think that I could raise a child? I had a father who neglected me."

"And my mom's dead because of me...Loki we've both made mistakes, our parents have made mistakes but that doesn't mean we can't learn from them." I push. Loki looks at me and sadly smiles "It sounds like you want to keep it."

He knew me so well. This baby has a chance at life, a chance to live. Why should I have to take that away? I thought I would be scared, well I am, but I have this feeling in me that even if I just found out I'm having a baby, I love them so much.

I smile softly and nod "I want to keep it."

"Okay so then we make a plan around that," says Bruce. Tony walks over to me and takes my hand "Are you sure?"

"Don't you trust me?" I ask.

"Of course I do, I just want to make sure we know what we're doing.....is there any way we can speed up the pregnancy maybe?" asked Tony. Stephen nods "Yeah there actually is." he says walking over and stands in front of me, he opens his necklace to reveal the Time Stone.

"You sure?" he asks one more time. I nod "How bad can it be."

Stephen waves his hands and a swirling green ring comes around my stomach. At first, I felt weird, but then my stomach started growing and felt like it was being stretched to the point of ripping "AHHHHH! OKAY NO NO NO NO OKAY I'M DONE!!!" I scream.

Loki holds my shoulders as I lean back gasping and panting "Woah!" says Bruce. I look down to see my stomach has grown, that was painful "Hey it worked, can we do it at a slower rate?" I ask. Tony looks at me like I'm insane "How far along is she now?"

"A little over two months," says Stephen, I sigh, how? That felt like hell "You want me to slow it down?"

I nod, Stephen waves his hands and a symbol appears on one side of my skin "What's that?" asked Loki "An ancient symbol that means fourteen." says Wong "Why fourteen?" I ask. 

"Because that's how many hours you have till you give birth with this certain spell over you, your pregnancy is sped up to half a month every hour."

Tony holds one of my hands "How are you feeling?"

"More normal. Well, it's a good thing the Time Stones on our side."

Bruce walks over "By the way could we table this discussion right now? The fact is that we have these Stones and know where the other one is. Vision is out there somewhere with the Mind Stone, and we have to find him now." 

"Yeah, that's the... thing." starts Tony awkwardly.

"What do you mean?" asked Loki.

"Two weeks ago, Vision turned off his transponder. He's offline."

"What?! Tony, you lost another one of my super bots?" I ask.

"I didn't lose him. He's more than that. He's evolving."

"I know that he's one of my best friends," I say.

"Who could find Vision, then?" asked Stephen.

I mean Natasha could so could Steve? I look over at Tony with the look "Shit." he says "Steve Rogers can." I say in a sarcastic tone. "Call him," says Bruce. Oh no I forgot to tell him!

"It's not that easy. God, we haven't caught up in a spell, have we?" starts Tony. I look at Bruce who looks at me confused "The Avengers broke up. We're toast." I say. Loki and Bruce look at me shocked.

"Broke up? Like a band? Like The Beatles?" he asks "Cap and I fell out hard. We're not on speaking terms." says Tony. "Tony, listen to me. Thor's gone. Thanos is coming. It doesn't matter who you're talking to or not."

Tony looks at me, we have no choice, Steve's been nice, I would love to see the team back together "We have to." I say. Tony hesitates, before pulling out the cellular phone Steve mailed him, muttering 'flip phone'. It seems as though he brings it everywhere, always ready to call his lost friend. Before clicking "Call", he pauses, distracted by an unusual rumbling.

"Say, Doc, you wouldn't happen to be moving your hair, would you?" ask Tony, we all look at Stephen to see his hair moving "Not at the moment, no."

I begin to get a feeling and stand slowly "Something here."