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when we got to the hospital they rushed him to the surgery room where he was for at least three hours now and there was still three hours to go. everyone gathered up, even you. ironically enough, jungkook ended up in the same hospital as you did, you were a crying mess pulling on an already messed up seokjin who was just holding you tightly. you were repeating random things that made the silence between the all of us disappear, although i wished that we wouldn't have been here either.

another thing that happened is that hoseok fell randomly on the floor as him and areum were talking about something, probably nothing well, when he woke up he reassured us that it happened to him almost all the time and that he had gotten even bigger injuries than that one. taehyung and jimin were sitting together, with jimin fast asleep on taehyung's shoulder as he let him use him as his pillow. he was tired as hoseok told us that he didn't sleep at all, he fell asleep with tears that were staining his cheeks.

namjoon was sitting next to me for some odd reason. we didn't talk, but his presence felt comforting for the first time in forever... we were all crying, someone quietly, someone loudly. but we all shared the same pain. i couldn't help but to blame myself, even though everyone reassured me that it was his 'second mind', it was the only thing that was bothering me. i am the one to blame because i left him alone when he shouldn't have been.

'sun...'

i looked up at namjoon who was playing with his fingers. i hummed in response as i didn't have any might to actually say anything.

'i... i know this is not the best time... but i just want to apologize to you. i've been rude and i've said some things i didn't mean and-'

'look namjoon, i know you're really sorry... and i accept your apology, but let's keep this for another time, okay?'

he nodded. turning to look at me as the tinniest smile played on his lips. i looked back at the surgery room door and my heart felt heavy at the thought that the doctor could come out with any news, i couldn't imagine how my life would be if i lost him. awful.

'i know what you're thinking right now.' i turned again to glance at namjoon who was looking at the same direction i did a few seconds ago. 'we all are thinking the same way. gosh i can't imagine what it would be like not having him around me, he's just so pure and a sunshine. but i believe that he will get through it. if anything, he is a fighter and he will never ever let go of this life.'

i nodded, a sense of relief and worry passing through me at the same time. i was scared but also i knew that he would get through it.

'and i've seen the tattoos you guys got. a pretty jungkook thing of the both of you to do.' he said making me let out a quiet chuckle.

'you aren't wrong, it was in the moment and i don't think i will regret it.'

i pulled my sleeve a little bit to look at the tattoo. whenever i looked at it, it gave me this feeling of happiness and love. i knew that if not in this lifetime, we will be together in the other one. i just know it.

i glanced at you, seokjin was sitting next to you on the chairs and you have calmed down. 'i can't even imagine what yoongi is feeling now... he must be so hurt.' i told namjoon who looked back at the elder with a sigh.

'they've been together since day one and just seeing them, hell even all of us, fall out was something that hurt us all. i know that it took a big toll on jungkook since we, at that time, were his only escape. a fifteen year old boy with grown men... well not grown, but you get what i mean. we just got used to him and we took care of him all the time. he loved us and we loved him. and when we fought he only had yoongi.' namjoon stopped himself for a bit before continuing. 'i know yoongi is regreting all of what he said to be boy right now.'