Special Cast, Special Love [Logan Lerman's Secret Tale]

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I almost literally crashed into Rose at the main door. She was surprised to see me.

"Leo!!! I just finished my retake and I rushed here straight away," she smiled as soon as she saw me, and then frowned a moment later, "where are you going?"

"Oh hey," I hate how fake my enthusiasm is at this point, "hi, hi, Rose. You look nice. Meg and Jay are upstairs, why don't your join them? I'm gonna be out for a while."

"...okay?" My pretty friend nodded slowly and looked at me like I'm some kind of weirdo. I already started running down the pavement when Rose shouted after me, "but where to?"

"I don't even know," I shouted back, continued with the sprinting.

*~*~SCSL~*~*

It was a stupid decision, really, me running. I've been unfit lately with everything going on and deciding to run in my skinny jeans at midday with the sun shining exactly on my head is never a good idea.

I didn't know where my feet were leading me to until I noticed sounds of children laughing, or screaming, I couldn't tell the difference. Judging from all the swings and slides, I'm clearly in a park.

I sat down on a bench nearby and just stared into space, trying not to think of what I just saw back in the house. Shaking my head rather violently, I buried my fingers into my locks and messed my hair up in frustration.

I was about to groan so it could match the mood but I heard a voice from behind me, "Leo, stop acting weird around children."

Closing my eyes, I bit my lower lip and tried to curse whoever it is controlling my life. The last person I want to meet at the moment is standing behind me. Right now. What did I ever do to make my life is troublesome?

"It's not my fault, is it?" I asked Meg without looking at him, "I just saw something that would scarred into my head forever, you want me to jump in joy and say encore?"

"I never know you're a homophobic," Meg stated out of the blue. I turned to look at him, feeling deeply offensive.

"Listen to me, you bastard," my head was screaming stop, stop, shut up but I ignored it, "seeing both of my friends kissing each other in my bedroom is not a piece of cake to take in. I was trying to be a nice person by leaving you two alone, and you just here accusing me for judging your sexuality. Do me a favor and shove your idea of a friend up your ass."

Meg's shoulders dropped after I finished. Once my anger passed, guilt came to take its place, "I'm sorry," I whispered, avoiding his eyes again. I won't even mind if I suddenly lose a best friend over this. I never called Meg a bastard before, let alone getting angry at him in general.

"No, you're not," he said, shifting closer to me, "and I'm sorry for not telling you before. I was scared."

"Did Rose know about this?"

He nodded, "she found out by herself."

Both of us went quiet again before Meg put a hand around my shoulders, "you had it hard, huh?"

I snickered and rested my head on his shoulder. He didn't mind it, "it hurts when someone chuck my goodwill right into my face, you feel me?"

"I'm sorry."

I shook my head and smiled a bit, "I don't understand. I was trying to make everyone happy, trying to do the right things. But they're angry at me for doing them. I'm doubting myself now and I hate it."

After that I started telling Meg everything. Literally everything, from the moment I moved into Logan's place until the show I watched last night. I didn't know if Meg was still listening, because he was quiet the whole time.