Secret Love

Secret Love Part 5

JJ was finally let out of the hospital a couple of days later JJ was told to take a few days off and rest with all her injures. This was good for her as it meant she had time to herself and time to think things over especially how she was going to get Derek to forgive her for everything she had done. JJ sat on her sofa snuggled up in a blanket watching some old TV show; She knew the team were away on a case knowing she had a couple of days to come up with a plan to win Derek over.

She laid her head back onto the sofa closing her eyes for a moment taking in the peace and quiet of her empty apartment, she felt her cat Oscar jump up onto her lap she opened her eyes and looked down at her white fluffy pussy cat and smiled stroking his back as he purred against her.

Derek was sat on the plane with his headphones in he really wasn't in the mood to talk to anyone all he wanted to do was go to the gym and work out to take his mind off things, He was really angry at JJ he couldn't believe she had lied to him and risked her own and the baby's life and ended up losing the baby he didn't know how to deal with anything epically now that the team knew and Hotch was going to have to report it. Derek knew the best thing to do was just keep his mind off it and keep his mind off the case.

The rest of the team sat talking on the plane around the 4 seats on the plane discussing the case and what profile they had.

Hotch-Okay so everyone knows what they're doing once we land

Emily-yep

Rossi-you think he's going to be able to focus?

Hotch-I think so looks like he's trying to avoid talking about it which makes my job ten times harder

Emily-yeah well if he feels bad,imagine how JJ feels

Reid-I spoke to her last night she seemed pretty upset

Rossi-Well she's just gone through a huge trauma

Emily-she will be fine in time she just needs time to herself

Hotch-I think they will both get through this but I don't think Derek's going to be so nice when JJ tries to get through to him.

Reid-Are you really going to report them?

Hotch-I have no choice

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JJ was walking around her apartment pacing as she tried to think of what she could say to the team and to Derek she knew he was going to be the hardest to get through to. All she had to do was plan her words carefully and hope he would give her a chance to explain everything and why she didn't want to tell him straight away. JJ walked into her bedroom and started cleaning up when she came across one of Derek's shirts she picked it up and took in his secant off the shirt and threw it into the wash basket. All that she knew was that getting her mind off of Derek wasn't going to be easy as everything in her apartment reminded her of him.

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The team was having a pretty good day with their case they had gotten all the leads they had needed and decided to go to their hotel rooms and get some sleep. Derek walked into his hotel room and sat down on the bed and put his hands over his head he took a deep breath and kicked off his shoes and headed into the bathroom to take a long hot shower. 

All he could think of was how much he wanted to see JJ's face he missed her but he was still mad at her which made him angrier knowing that facing her was going to be hard. Once he got out of the shower and dried off he sat back down on the bed and picked up his phone when he clicked the wrong button, and noticed a picture of him and JJ when they had gone away for the weekend, it was of them sat on the beach staring into each other's eyes. He smiled at the picture just staring at it for the rest of the night.

JJ had crawled into the bed and started reading a new book she wanted to read for a while and now finally had the time to do it She saw she had a text message and looked at the caller ID to see it was Hotch checking in on her, she looked at the message and replied quickly hoping she would be left alone. All she wanted to do was go back in time and do things differently and hope things would have worked out.

A couple of days had passed and the team had closed the case, They had gotten back quite early in the evening for a change everyone had decided to go out for something to eat but Derek decided to go home and get some sleep. He was sat in his apartment with his dog watching some TV and having a beer enjoying his nice empty apartment which he had missed the last few days of being away. JJ had gotten a text off Emily telling her that Derek had gone home and that it would be the best time to go and apologize to him before she went back to work tomorrow. She got dressed and drove round to Derek's apartment and waited a few minutes before she knocked on the door waiting for him to answer. Derek heard a knock on the door and got up off the sofa and opened the door to see JJ stood there.

JJ-hey

Derek just stared at her not knowing what to say

JJ-look I know you don't want to see my right now but just please hear me out

Derek-fine go-ahead

JJ-I am so sorry, I didn't want to hurt you or myself but I just didn't know what to do I was so freaked out that It didn't really kick in that I was pregnant

Derek-is that it?

JJ looked up at Derek about to say something but was taken back by his reply she looked up into his eyes they just seemed dull and full of hate whereas hers were full of sorrow and tears

JJ-what more do you want me to say, that I was going to tell you that night

Derek didn't say anything he just grabbed the door and slammed into in her face, JJ jumped back a bit as the door slammed shut she took a deep breath and let a couple of tears fall down her eyes and walked off to her car.

Once she got home she sat down on her bed and pulled the pillow to her chest and cried into it she couldn't believe Derek had just slammed the door in her face all she wanted to do was talk to him and now there was no chance of that. All she wanted to do was go and scream in his face until he would talk to her.

Derek paused a second after he saw the door slam shut he heard his dog whine at him and walk off, He took a sip of his beer before throwing it at the wall and watched it smash all down the wall leaving a stain. He walked back to the sofa and sat with his hands around his neck, all he wanted to do was take back slamming the door in her face he had no idea why he did it he guessed he was just a little drunk and didn't know what to say to her.

All both of them knew was that the next few days were going to be very hard and emotional for both their personal and work lives.

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