Blame Me

Chapter 7

Chapter 7

Jace

　　

　　My heart was pounding in my ears. My fists were balled up so tight, I thought that I might break a bone just by that. 

　　Calm down, calm down. Being angry isn’t going to get you anywhere. I kept telling myself. But dammit, I was angry as hell! 

　　First, my mother decided to bring up the fight she had with Dad last night about me not spending enough time with him. She tried to explain for what seemed like the millionth time that it wasn’t his fault about what happened when they separated. At this point, hearing those same words again and again was making me tired of it. My father could keep saying that he wanted to talk to me, wanted to amend our relationship but he didn’t get to have a say in that after hurting my mother and siblings so badly. I didn’t want to be part of his life, especially the rich, extravagant life that he led. 

　　Then just to make everything of so wonderful, she shows up sitting on the bench in front of me like a freaking princess. And of course I couldn’t just give her a glare and walk away, I opened my freaking mouth and had to make everything worse. 

　　I regretted saying the things to her a bit, but I also needed to get it off my chest. Every time that I saw her she would give me this innocent glance, curious about the way I glared at her like there was nothing she could ever do to make me hate her. Add that to my already heightened temper and then the words spewed out of my mouth, not stopping until they heard her confess that she knew nothing about pain. 

　　The confession’s happiness lasted until I noticed the tremble in her voice and the wetness in her eyes. I never wanted her to be hurt from my words. Ironic how I said she knew nothing about pain and yet I caused it to her. God, I was such a stupid, awful person. 

　　“Really, Jace?” I heard someone say behind me, “Really?”

　　I turned around to see Dani standing with a murderous look on her face. I sighed and ran my hand through my hair, I already knew what was going to come up next. 

　　“I’m sorry, okay? I didn’t mean to go that far, there’s just a lot going on right now,” I told her, looking anywhere but at her face. 

　　“Why the fuck are you telling me that?” Dani asked, spewing the words out with so much hate that I didn’t know how to handle it. I guess I knew what Elise felt like now.

　　“Tell that to the girl who is now as flippin’ broken as she can get because you,” Dani pointed at me, “Decided to voice some fucked up thoughts you had about her,”

　　“I’m sorry okay!” I told her exasperated, “I didn’t mean to say those-”

　　“Bullshit,” Dani stated, crossing her hands across her chest, “You meant everything, you’re just sorry that she got hurt because of it,”

　　I was about to say something to defend myself but Dani cut me off by raising her hand. 

　　“You’re not the only person who hurts Jace, don’t go pointing fingers at people for things that you have no idea about,” Dani stared at me with a piercing gaze, her blue eyes like knives, “Elise is an amazing person, so before you judge her get to know her. Because I swear to you, that you will never find someone who would care that much about you if you did,”

　　I looked away towards a tree by Dani’s side, “I am really sorry,”

　　“Jace, you’re not bad I can tell that, you just need to stop assuming things,” Dani explained in a softer tone, “Because it’s going to hurt people that are already hurting,”