Lost Souls

Chapter 15

stay safe and healthy.xx.
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Daenerys
A three letter word is what gave me hope tonight. A three letter word that has no meaning to the world. A three letter word that made me softly smile again tonight. A three letter word that made me love you more. "Yes".

Your apartment has no decorations. It's just a gray color. There's a few pictures hanging on the walls. You have more dog toys in the house then anything. It's peaceful here. It's you. It's your home.

"Are you hungry?" I don't even realize how hungry I am until you ask. When was the last time I ate? I nod at your question. "I'm going to order some pizza, is that okay?" I nod again.

We wait about fifteen minutes and the pizza here. I'm sitting on your couch while petting Ghost. He hasn't moved from my side we came here. He follows me into the kitchen and sits by feet when I sit on the bar stool. You hand me a slice and we eat in silence. Again, peaceful.

Shit. I don't have clothes. I don't have anything. We never went to my place to grab anything. You just turned the car around and we were off to your home.

"I don't have any clothes or anything with me". I say watching you feed Ghost.

"You can just borrow some of mine. Come on I'll give you something". You say walking upstairs. I follow you and notice that you keep clenching and unclenching your hands. I furrow my eyebrows at that.

We make it to your room. You hand me your old t-shirt and a pair of shorts. I ask you if I can take a shower and you lead me to your bathroom. You leave, while I whisper and simple "thank you".

Twenty minutes later and I'm standing in front of your mirror. Hair wet, your clothes on, smelling like you. I'm content. The war in my head is off. It's quiet up there. I hear you come back into your room and I leave the bathroom.

"You can sleep in here, I'm going to take the couch. If you need anything just wake me up, okay?" I don't want to argue with you. So I just simply say "okay". You leave me alone in your room. I go under the covers and soon enough I'm asleep.

"Daenerys my sweet baby girl where are you hiding? Come out now. Daddy won't hurt you. Daenerys come out before daddy gets mad"

"DAENERYS TARGARYEN GET OUT OF HERE RIGHT NOW"

"Daenerys we know what happens when you make daddy mad, don't we? Or do we need to REVISIT YOUR BROTHER?!"

"Oh you think your a smart little one don't you? Hiding under your brothers bed. Tsk tsk my sweet. Tsk tsk. Come on now let's go see momma"

I jolt up out of the bed. Ny vision is blurry. My head is blurry. No no. Not again. I haven't had one in so long. Why now? Why? I look over at my feet and see Ghost laying with me.

I get out of bed and go downstairs. I go over to where your sleeping. I just look at you sleeping peacefully. I don't want to wake you, but I have too. I need you.

I shake you lightly. "Jon. Jon wake up"

You stir and start to wake up. You look around the room before your eyes meet my wet ones. You look at me and your eyebrows furrow. You just sigh and open your arms and I crawl in. I lay my head on your chest listening to your heart beat. You don't ask questions. You just play with my hair soothingly. You soon start to rub your fingers down my spine. And within a second all I see is darkness.
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I awake to you not being next to me. I awake to Ghost laying on the floor sleeping next to me. I sigh and get up. I make my way into the kitchen. Your not there. Your not anywhere. I go upstairs and find you putting a shirt on. Why did you leave?

"Hi" I say softly to you.

"Good mornin' sleep okay?"

"Yeah" I say looking around your room. Why did you leave?

"I have to get to work. Apparently somethings wrong with a car and they need me."

"O-okay. Let me just get dressed and then you can drop me off" I say grabbing my clothes off the dresser and walking towards the bathroom. Why did you leave?

"I'll be downstairs" you say looking at me one more time and walking away. Why did you leave?

I get dressed and make my way downstairs. I see you feeding Ghost in the kitchen. You hear me and look up and ask if I'm hungry. I shake my head no. Why did you leave? Ghost makes his way towards me and rubs his body on my legs.

"He likes you" you say nodding towards your dog. I laugh lightly but can't seem to bring any words to my mouth. Why did you leave? "We should get going". You out of the kitchen and grab your keys and start to walk out. I'm out the door and you turn one more time to say bye to Ghost.

We drive in silence. Not peaceful. Not in my head. The war in my head is going off. It won't stop. We make it to my house and I bid you a goodbye and thank you. I walk out of your car and go up to my door. I open the door and turn around to close it and at the last moment your foot stops the door.

I look up at you shocked. And in five seconds you grab my face and place your lips against mine. Not hard. Not angry. But with desire. With want. With tenderness. I respond immediately back.

We pull apart after what feels like hours and you place another peck on my lips. We look at one another searching for something. What? I don't know. You look at my lips once again and then back at my eyes. All the while I'm memorizing your face incase this is a dream. Then I don't want to forget it.

You place another light kiss on my lips and walk away. You don't turn back. You get into your car and drive away.

The war in my head stopped. But the question, the inevitable question still remains.

Why did you leave?
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well first kiss. was hesitant on making it so soon. but I did it for a reason. I apologize for that in advance.
xx.