Lost Souls

Chapter 16

wash your hands.stay safe.xx.
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Daenerys
Three weeks. Three weeks since I've seen you. Three weeks since I've heard you. Three weeks since I've felt your arms around me. Three weeks since I've felt your lips on mine. Three weeks and you disappeared.

For the first few days, I thought maybe you were just busy. You had work and couldn't get in contact with me. I thought maybe you would show up. So I kept a light on at my front porch just in case. I didn't use.

I was okay.

Then the next few days, I started to leave the light off. You couldn't have been that busy to not contact me. You never showed up. I still didn't use, but the urge to use got heavy. I was alone. Miss has been staying at the guys house but, I was still okay.

Then one week hit and all hell broke loose. The war in my head was happening. The unanswered questions, the need to see you, to just glance at your face. The memory of you wasn't enough.

Why did you leave?

I used today. Nothing to hard. Nothing too soft though. Something to ease the pain. Something to stop the war. Something to get me here. Standing in front of your apartment. Looking at the numbers that read 302. Afraid to knock. Afraid if I do, you'll slam the door in my face. Afraid that someone else will open it. Afraid you'll open it and realize I'm nothing.

But I still knock. And you don't answer.

Three weeks and one day. I can't stop the thoughts. I can't stop wondering why. I can't stop anything. I haven't been too school and I don't plan on going. I just want you. Crazy isn't it? I didn't want anything to do with you and now, goddamnit, I only want you.

Ned's Car Shop. The place I always end up going. The place that brought me happiness for a little bit. The place that gave me a little hope. And the place that will take everything from me.

I know your here. It's late and you always work late. There's one light on and faint music on. I know it's you. It's like a magnet is pulling me towards you. I hate myself for coming here, but I have to know. I have to stop this war. So here I am, standing in front of you and you don't even realize because I'm nothing to you. I'm just a girl who uses and has nobody.

I knock on the trunk of the car to grab your attention. "Hi"

"Daenerys what- what are you doing here?" You say but don't look shocked to see me. I've missed you, that's what I want to say. But before I can process what I'm saying the question that's been in my head for weeks comes out.

"Why did you leave?" I keep looking at your eyes.

"What?" You furrow your brows and keeping looking at me.

"Why did you leave me that morning? Why did you wake up and leave me? Why did you let me come home with you? Why did you kiss me and then disappear for three weeks!? Why didn't you answer the door when I came to your apartment to see you? Why did YOU LEAVE ME?" My voice starts to raise and my vision starts to get blurry. I can feel the anger in me start to rise. I just want to know.

"Are you high right now?" You ask me stepping closer and I step back.

I shake my head and one tear falls. "No I'm not. Fuck you! Answer me! Why did you leave me Jon?! Why?!"