Lost Souls

Chapter 19

this is still the same day.
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Daenerys
What did I do? What did I do? What did I do? I lost you. I-I lost you. No no no no. Why did I do this? How could I do this? Why am I like this? Why do I push the people I love away? I love you so much that pushed and I lost you. I can't do this. I need you.

I need the pain to stop.

I go to the only thing I know that'll help. Walking upstairs going to my hell. To the place that will ruin me. Funny isn't it? The one place I look for something to make me feel anything is the place that'll kill me. Poetic if you ask me.

I almost make it to hell before the banging on my front door interrupts me. I open the door and before I even realize who it is, you slam your lips onto mine. You push me inside my house and slam me up against my wall. Still kissing me, you place your hands on the sides of my neck and bring my face closer. You pull away after a few minutes and just look at me.

"You might not care about your life right now but I do. And I'm sure as hell not going to let you forget that you have a reason to live for."

"Jon-"

"Shut up. Don't ever fucking tell me to let you go. Your mine Daenerys Targaryen. I'm never letting you fucking go. You want to die well guess what baby your going to have to take me with you because I'm never letting you go. I just got you and I plan on having you forever".

Before I can respond you bring your lips back to mine. You hands slide down to my thighs and you squeeze the back of them. I jump into your arms and wrap my hands around your neck while grabbing your hair. You make your way to my room with me clinging onto you and place me onto the bed. Your lips leave mine to place kisses on my neck. You bring your lips back to mine. One by one are clothes come off. And this moment, it's just us.

I awake later that day feeling around the bed and don't feel you. No, not again. Please not again. I open my eyes to the bed empty. Just me wrapped up in the sheets. Please not again. I sit up and look around for you, but your not here. I look down and notice your shirt on the floor. I drop the sheets and put your shit on. The mint smoke smell of you that I love so much is there. Please not again.

I walk downstairs and find you in the kitchen with your back turn towards me. Your still here. You didn't leave. You have your sweatshirt on but you look relaxed? Your back isn't tensed and the rest of you look calm.

"Hi" I say softly walking towards you. "What are you doing in here?"

"Had to grab water. What are you doing up?" You ask me picking me up when I'm close to you and placing me on the counter.

"Looking for you". I say looking at you. Your eyes are brighter. You smirk slightly at that and lean in for a kiss. You pull away after a few seconds and sigh.

"What's wrong?" I place my hand onto your cheek and you lean into it ever so slightly.

"I would love to continue this but I have to get to work. Davos needs me for something". You say as your thumb traces my lips. I smile softly and nod my head. "I'll be back later okay?"

"Okay" I say in a breathless tone. You lean in for another kiss and squeeze my thighs. I jump a little at that making you chuckle hoarsely. That sound bringing shivers through my whole body. You pull away from me and peck my lips one more time. You walk away from me and go by my door. You don't leave though.

You keep your hand on the knob. I jump off the counter and walk towards you. Before I make it to you, you turn around and say the four words that mean everything to me. That brings the smile to my face as your leaving.

"It's not a dream"
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see happy ending? maybe? this is not the end of the book by the way. if you don't get the "it's real" then reread chapter 17 I think? hope you liked it.
  Xx.