screaming **Discontinued**

chapter 19

just first of all really short. this is chapter 19. chapter fricking 19. I would have never thought that I would be there so soon. thank you if you have read it this far it means the world to me. just know that even when i'm not publishing I think about you and this story. it's always on my mind and I hope that there will be many chapters to come.

William was very protective over me these past days. I couldn't quite make up my mind if I hated it or loved it. he carried me around at the house, but not at school that would be a bit too much. so when he carried me to my room as usual I signaled to him that he needed to put me down. ''nope.'' he simply said. 'I can walk myself you know. I have crutches and I know all too well how to use them.' I gestured. he seemed to get it. at te last part his eyes turned sad but he quickly recovered and his eyes now hid hi sadness but for a person that is a pro in hiding her emotions I could still see it was there. ''i'm not gonna make you walk yourself. end of discussion.'' he said simply and I gave up. I knew I would never get through to him. the next day he wasn't there so I could just walk myself or so I thought. before I knew it I was being picked up by Dolan. I groaned. 'he made you do this didn't he?' I asked with my hands. they all were getting really good at understanding my weird hand movements. I had no doubt that if they started learning sign language they would ace it. ''maybe.'' Dolan said and I gave him my most menacing glare knowing it would work. he looked at me fake scared. ''yes he did he absolutely did.'' he said while grinning. I couldn't help but grin back. I had my breakfast while watching the news. ''this man has been signaled around multiple neighborhoods. he's is very dangerous don't try to negotiate call the police immediately when you see him.'' I looked at the news and almost choked on my breakfast when I saw the photo. that photo was a photo of my father....

no it can't be. could it? no this man was dangerous and had killed a man. that could've never been my father because he was the kindest man I knew. he would never hurt someone I probably saw it wrong the man there had long and dirty facial hair. my dad always took very good care of himself. ''this is another picture of the man.'' I looked up and I froze. the picture now was a photo of the same man but without the dirt and his facial hair was trimmed. that was no doubt my father in the flesh.

I went to school not being able to concentrate on anything. I was just thinking about my father. he was alive, but he was wanted by the police. he had killed someone how could he have changed so much. did the incident do as much damage to him as it did to me? could that be why he killed someone? no that couldn't be it I was at the incident too but I didn't start killing people. I kept thinking about it all day. the teachers sometimes asked me something but they had to ask multiple times to get my attention and when they had it I had no idea what they had been talking about. Gaby, Lily and Dolan had seen that I was out of it too. I had no doubt that William did too but I was too busy with my father to worry about him too. the day went by incredibly slowly and the last bell in the last class didn't seem to come fast enough. I went home on my crutches so fast that William or Dolan didn't even have time to pick me up. normally Dolan would give me a ride home with the others but I really needed some time alone right now. I went home walking on my crutches. when I walked by a park I walked in and sat down on a bench and allowed my thoughts to race through my head. I had no idea how long I had been lying there but eventually I stood up and started walking to the house. about twenty minutes later I arrived and there were Shelby, Mark, Gaby, Lily and Dolan all waiting for me. ''Paris!'' Lily exclaimed when she saw me. ''oh Paris you're here.'' I shrugged and hobbled to the stairs planning to go up. ''oh no you're not.'' Dolan said while stopping me and taking away my crutches so I was completely depended on him to stand or walk. he set me down on a chair and I pouted like a little kid. ''Paris what was going on with you today?'' Gaby asked. ''you were completely out of it.'' she added. I shrugged. ''is it that man from the news this morning?'' Shelby asked and I froze. shoot! I really didn't want to tell them my suspicions, but I guess with my wonderful freezing action I blew my cover. ''it is isn't it?'' Gaby said. ''oh Paris sweetie you don't have to be scared of him. what happened that night will not happen again I promise.'' Shelby said while hugging me. I was glad that they thought that was the reason and I didn't have to explain my actual reason. what Shelby said wasn't true it was a big fat lie. I just nodded like it was the reason and it was all good now. she can't make sure that it doesn't happen just like my mother promised to never leave me. they are all lies. that's how I learned my second rule in life. never trust any promises. and immediately after that I made my third. never trust anyone. so here I was I had broken all of my rules I promised myself I would never break. I had been getting way to normal here but I needed to reverse that. if I stayed normal like Gaby and Lily I would loose my focus and out of nowhere the few people I care about would be snatched from my life.

it's so sad. here you can see how broken she really is. i'm sorry that I had to make her distant again but just know after rain comes a rainbow.

that night I lay on my bed and stared at the ceiling. I sat up and looked at the gifts from my parents. then it hit me. I needed to find him. I need to go and find my dad it was the only way to clear up my mind and maybe go back to how it used to be. no I can't Shelby and Mark would never let me. I need to find him he's the only one connected to that night I love. he has killed people it is crazy to go and find a murderer. he's my father. (I thought it was funny to put in a little bit like in the Disney movie tangled or how we call it rapunzel. that scene always makes me laugh. how torn you could be. it's like playing tennis against yourself.) I was going crazy this was impossible. I felt like I was being ripped apart by the two sides. I climbed out of bed and sat down on the ground. it was a lot harder with one leg casted but I managed. I sat down and put my hands over my ears and began to slowly rock back and forth. eventually I passed out from exhaustion still lying on the floor. that morning Dolan woke me up. he knocked at the door and then came in. he saw me lying on the floor with traces of tears still evident. ''Paris what's wrong? why are you lying on the floor?'' he asked picking me up. I knew there was absolutely no way I could hide it from them any longer. I went down with Dolan willingly and sat down at the breakfast table. I then waited for the others to come down knowing that they wanted to talk about this with everyone. When everybody was present I looked at Dolan awaiting what he was going to say. "so what's going on?" Gaby said. "well I think Paris hasn't been completely honest with us." He said. "oh what is it then?" Shelby said. I sighed this wasn't going anywhere if they wanted to get to the point it would take a million years. I got out a paper and wrote 'that man that has been seen around the neighborhood is my father' and I put it on the table with a extravagant gesture so they would all notice. Then they all bend forward and read the message. "What?!" Mark said. I was shocked I was actually expecting the least overreacted response if he even made that response then what would the rest even say? I looked at them and saw that they were probably not even going to say anything because they were too surprised to say anything at all. I turned sad and hung my head. Now I was going to have to tell them I was going to leave. 'I'm going to and find him. You can't stop me I'm leaving anyway.' I wrote and put it on the table for them to read. They tried and tried to convince me not to do it but it had no use I had already decided. I wasn't going to leave completely but I was going away for quite a while. Or at least I assumed that my dad wasn' t that easy to find if the police wasn't even able to find him. I packed a backpack and went to school it was Friday and right after school I was going away. School was like usual I ignored everyone I wasn't going to see them for a long time anyway. After school I walked out and went on my tour. Until I got a message on my phone. Shelby and the others wanted to have me for dinner just one more night. I sighed and went back home just because i didn't have an actual chance to say goodbye yet. i had dinner and everyone looked sad. i knew why it was because of me. they didn't want me leaving to chase after a criminal, but that criminal still was my dad and he deserved better than this.