Secret Kisses

SK Part 19

19.

I drove in silence. My temper subsided. I prepared myself for this kind of thing to happen. I was just a distraction to him. All the things he said was a lie. With all these thoughts, i still couldn't bring myself to cry. I just felt numb inside.

I found my self back at the school. I sat under the large oak tree. It was dark and the only lights that were the dim post lamps that illuminated the pathways. I was usually afraid to wander the campus at night alone, but i didn't care. I didn't want to stay in my dorm.

"Jayla? Is that you?" a voice said. though i couldn't see who it was. "If you're sebastian i don't want to talk to you. so just leave." i said. The figure came closer and sat next to me. "Well i'm not sebastian so i guess i can talk to you. What's wrong Jayla?" It was Blake. I hadn't seen Blake since my vacation to Hawaii. "Oh hi Blake. It's nothing." i said. i stared at the school. "Usually when someone says nothing, it's usually something. But if you don't want to confide in me, than i won't push you." Blake said. i kept silent. "Alright. i guess i should leave you alone." he began to stand up. "He kissed another girl." i suddenly said. I didn't want to be alone anymore. Blake sat down next to me again. "You are certain he did?" he said. "I saw them with my own two eyes. Though it was bound to happen sometime right? i mean look at me." i said. "Jayla. Stop. It isn't your fault. Nothing is wrong with you. It's Sebastian's mistake. He had a wonderful girl like you, and he screwed up. It's his lost. Don't put yourself down Jayla. You're beautiful Jayla." Blake said. i said nothing. "Jayla listen to me. you are a wonderful person." he said desperately trying to make me feel better. "Thanks Blake." i said. Though i didn't believe what he said. "Are you going to be alright." he said. "Yea. i will. thank you. i should go back to my dorm. it's getting late." i said. i stood up. "Jayla if you ever need anyone to talk to, i'm here." Blake said and gave me a tight hug. "Thanks." i said and walked to my dorm.

Several days past and i ignored Sebastian completely. I didn't answer my phone or reply to his messages. he stopped by my dorm but i didn't answer the door.

Semester was starting today and i walked to my first class. It was Biology. I still felt numb. Today i wore pants and a hoodie. I entered the Biology lab and was early as usual. there were a few students sitting in the front. I took a seat in the middle. i just sat there silently, staring at the desk design.

Few minutes passed and the biology room started to fill. Though i didn't pay attention to the students walking in. "Hello class. Welcome to Biology 250. I'm your teacher Scarlet Fletcher. Call me Miss Fletcher." I looked up to the woman who called herself Miss Fletcher. I was taken aback. She was the same woman from Starbucks several days ago. Today she wore a gray pencil skirt and matching blazer. She wore stockings and black pumps. her hair was in a neat bun on her head. She wore light makeup. Her eyes scanned the room, taking in the new faces. Then her eyes locked with mine. She smiled at me and continued looking at the rest of the class.

Ms. Fletcher lectured the whole one hour class. It went by pretty quick. i packed my things and started to walk to the door. A hand on my shoulder stopped me. i turned to see ms. Fletcher. "Is there a problem Ms. Fletcher?" i asked politely. "Just call me Scarlet. No there isn't but i just wanted to talk to you. are you busy?" she asked. i wonder what she wanted to talk to me about. "no i don't have my next class in two hours." i said. she smiled. "lets get some breakfast and talk." She said.

We walked to her car. "So what did you want to talk about Scarlet?" i said. i felt a bit awkward. "You know for some reason Jayla, I like you.  I think you'd make a good friend." she said. This was weird. i'd barely spoken to her and now she wants to be my friend. "Thanks." i said.

Scarlet took me to a bistro near the school. She told me about her past and how she grew up in Cali. She was a nice person and i was happy that we were becoming friends. I told her about my past too. Though i didn't mention Sebastian. I didn't want to ruin the moment.

Scarlet and I drove back to the campus. She walked with me. Though i stopped walking. Sebastian stood in front of us with a bouquet of yellow tulips. Though he had a confused look on his face. "Sebastian Sinclare?" Scarlet said. "You know him?"i said her. Sebastian didn't move. "Yea i used to go to high school together." She said. i then recalled what she said at starbucks. "Is he your ex that always drank vanilla lattes?" i asked. "Yea he was. How'd you- oh i see." she said. She must have recalled my order. "Scarlet. What are you doing here?" Sebastian said. I was a little phased. How many of his ex girlfriends had to be here. Though i actually liked Scarlet. "I'll see you later Scarlet" i said.  i turned around and walked the other direction. I could hear Sebastian calling after me and Scarlet too but i kept walking. I could hear Sebastian running after me. "Wait Jayla. please!" Sebastian said. I stopped walking, though i didn't turn around. i knew he was behind me now. "Leave me alone Sebastian. I never want to see you again." i then took out the ring and necklace from my pocket. i looked at it. I was going to pawn it today. i turned around. Sebastian stood several feet away from me. He looked sad. I walked toward him and took his hand and placed the jewelry in his palm. He looked at it. Then i walked away.

i continued my day by going to the rest of my classes and did my homework that night at the library. After i finished i headed to my dorm. "Jayla." i knew who it was. i stopped walking. "I'm so glad i found you." Scarlet said. I wasn't mad at her. I had no reason to. "Hey scarlet. What's up." i said. She was standing in front of me. "Let's go to dinner. We should talk." she said. I didn't feel like talking but i didn't want to be rude. "Sure. I'll just drop my books at the dorm." i said. "That's fine. Meet me at Pinks in thirty minutes." she said. i nodded. I walked back to my dorm and sighed. Pinks. Seriously? I groaned and dropped my books on my room floor. i took a quick shower and changed into pants and a hoodie.

I arrived at Pinks and found Scarlet sitting at the table in the back. She still wore her school clothes. i sat across from her. "Hey." i said. she smiled. "Jayla earlier today, i know you were hurt and i didn't know if it was because of me." she said. i furrowed my eyebrows. "Scarlet no you didn't do anything. i'm not upset at you." i said. i didn't know where she got that idea from. "oh i thought you were upset that you found out Sebastian and I used to date." She said. "I know that everyone has a past and it doesn't matter. I'm not with him." i said. She frowned. "But just several days ago you were buying him coffee. I'm sorry. You don't need to tell me. I didn't mean to pry." she said. "No it's alright Scarlet. Yea i was buying him coffee but that was before he kissed another girl." i said. "Oh i'm so sorry. Though that doesn't sound like Sebastian. You see, in high school, Sebastian always excluded him self. He was always handsome, though he didn't know it, or abuse it. I guess that's why girls in our class went crazy over him. He hadn't dated much and it was hard to actually get him to come out. He was always nice and always studying. It just doesn't seem like him to cheat." She said. "People change i guess." i said. "i guess. Do you know who the girl was?" she asked. "Yea his ex girlfriend Janine." i took a sip of my water. "Oh. i remember her. I was never a friend of hers but i knew her. She was one who clung to people. Janine couldn't be single or alone. i guess she took it hard when Sebastian dumped her." Scarlet said. "It really doesn't matter any more" i said. "Oh Jayla. I'm sorry. I know it's tough right now, but over time you will forget about him and find someone better." she said. "Yea i've read enough books to know that." i said. It was all the same. "Jayla i hope you know that i'm not saying this because i want Sebastian back. But i'm not. I'm already engaged. see." she held up her engagement hand and showed me the diamond ring. "I wasn't thinking that. but Congrats." i said. "Thank you. We should order." She said.

After dinner with Scarlet, i went back to my dorm. i opened the door and there was an envelope on my floor. My name was printed on the top. i picked it up and sat on my bed. i opened it and it was Sebastian's hand writing.

"Jayla, I'm so sorry. Please forgive me. Please let me explain in person. It's your choice if you want to meet me at the beach tomorrow at 6pm. I hope to see you. If you chose not to come, i'll never bother you again. I promise. I love you. -Sebastian"

I crumpled the paper and threw on the floor. i didn't know if i should go. A part of me wanted to forget everything happened and another part just didn't want to see him ever again. I didn't know what to do.

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