When the skyfalls

Epilogue

"One last push Dot, come on girl, you can do this! She's so nearly here!" Grasping his wife's sweaty hand for dear life, tears flowing and a blinding smile, Joseph Sugg became a father for the fourth time.

After nine short months, filled with tears, sadness, fear, happiness and excitement, the Sugg family was finally complete. Following the loss of their rainbow baby, the Sugg parents struggled adjusting to life without their baby but in the end, they came out of the horrid situation much stronger. The relationship between them truly blossomed; Joseph learned how to effectively communicate his feelings without bottling them up, admitting that he needs help sometimes and Dianne learned that her insecurities and loosing a baby did not define her; she couldn't blame herself, her body did exactly what it had to do, as hard as that was for them. Of course, little Lottie Sugg learned that sometimes, people get very upset and angry and that's okay, as long as you talk it out with someone, its okay to not be okay sometimes but no matter what, mummy and daddy loved Lottie very much. She also learned, on her birthday, that she was going to be a big sister again and that was very exciting for a big five year old, who then bounced round the remainder of her birthday party, much to the delight of her parents, nanny and grandad and of course, Auntie Zo and Uncle Alf.

When it came to the 20 week scan, the entire Sugg family learnt that they would not be welcoming one baby to the family...but two! With Dianne expecting twins, one boy and one girl, Joseph naturally went into protective mode, stopping his work completely and with his dad's help, building the perfect nursery for their babies- a yellow and white theme and rainbow decal, on Dianne's orders, filled with two cribs, a dresser and a rocking chair for later night feeds when required. While the chaos of renovation and decoration filled her household, Dianne nested quietly, with the help of Lottie and Zoe of course, in the den and her bedroom, filling them with baby safe items, teddy bears and essentials in each room for when her babies arrived. Once the initial shock and fear wore off, Dianne settled nicely into pregnancy this time round, despite carrying twins, she didn't suffer as much with morning sickness and decided from the very start, to take it very easy. This time, she also had a pregnancy buddy to share her journey with; two weeks after she discovered she was pregnant, Zoe also shared news of her first pregnancy, after years of trying! The two women had but a few weeks between due dates, meaning the cousins would grow up the best of friends and the pair could go baby shopping and planning together!

On the 16th of June, at 5.11pm and 5.24pm, with her husband and mother by her side, Dianne welcomed her beautiful twins into the world, weighing 5lbs and 4oz and 5lbs exactly. The labour was natural (after much discussion with her doctor, midwife and of course, family) and straightforward, her midwife even described it as; "textbook". After proving that both her children could latch and feed successfully and a few other health checks, the Sugg family were discharged and made the short journey home to introduce the rest of the family to their newest additions. Both Dianne and Joe would be eternally grateful for the support system around them; waiting to welcome them home, was both Dianne and Joe's parents, as well as Zoe, who had cleaned and tidied the whole house in preparation, although she used nesting as an excuse. Rina had spent the day cooking and baking with Tracy, to ensure the new family had plenty of food ready to go and a few nice treats to enjoy in these early days, whilst Mark and Graham had built a nappy-changing unit in the den for the couple and a new swing for Lottie to enjoy on her own.

After a moment of apprehension, Lottie settled into the role of "big sister" very quickly, vowing to "love them, play with them and I am DEFINITELY going to teach them to spit and run!", her exclamation met with an outburst of laughter from her family and a stern message from her mother, "Charlotte Sugg! We do not spit!" Despite her initial fears for pregnancy, Dianne settled into the routine of being a mother of three very quickly; She relaxed once again, showing the light hearted, fun loving woman she had been prior to the loss of rainbow, cherishing every moment with her newborns and each and every moment shared with Lottie. Unlike his wife, Joe's "stresshead" side came out following the birth of his still un-named, newborn twins; constantly running around in search of anything dangerous, watching them as they slept and fretting about every, tiny ache or pain Dianne felt in the days after birth (all of which were natural and to be expected of course!), much to her amusement! However, no matter how stressed he felt or the fears he faced, there was always one feeling which overruled all others- the sense of pride and admiration Joe had for Dianne was unmatched. Throughout her pregnancy, Dianne had been HIS rock, calming and soothing him at every opportunity and dare it be said...making carrying twins look easy?! It is not to say that there were not any wobbles during those nine months; of course there were! Every now and then. Dianne would wake up during the night, in a cold sweat and shaking due to the nightmares that plagued her mind; the tears which followed these nightmares or those that attacked her at random point during the day and of course, the moment of frustration that every mother has when she eventually realises she can't put her shoes on alone, which hit much earlier with twins. Joe couldn't quite believe just how well she had dealt with it all, that she had carried his children with minimal complaints despite the discomfort on her small body, that she had laboured for nearly 20hours and delivered both babies naturally, with very little pain medication or assistance.