Like rain, I fell for you

Part 11 *Someone to love*

• Back with another chapter. Was listening to Lewis Capaldi - Someone you loved and this chapted came out. Hope you guys enjoy it!!
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Demets POV
Two days, or more.. I lost count.
It's been days that I am here in this room and haven't seen the light of sun ever since.. I don't even want to remind myself about it.
How could I be so dumb? How could I possibly be so stupid to even think someone I thought I had feelings for, would love me back.. I mean I was never sure, but I felt it in my heart that the feeling was mutual.. I guess I was wrong and now I can't take off my head from it.

Flashback (Demets POV)

"Okay guys lunch break" yells the director as we altogether rush to the table to eat.
I obviously am sitting with Can, laughing and chatting, acting crazy and silly as we usually do, when suddenly a girl that I don't know and that definitely isn't supposed to be on set, approaches us, I mean approaches Can saying, and I quote "I thought you said you'll come over to my house last night, but you didn't, care to explain"? I was in shock. Was he supposed to be with her but he didn't because I invited him over. Did he want to go over her house and spend the night with her but he didn't because I was insisting on him to stay over that night. Damn it you!! This girl looked hot and beautiful, with long blonde curly hair and blue eyes and was tall and good body and everything a guy looks for in a woman. And I'm here sitting, eating all types of junk food and expect to be loved by a man that has millions of other options of girls to be with. Who tf am I kidding? I mean the fact that this is gowing through my head right now it's pissing me off even more because there's no way I'm this stupid.!!
"I did, but I couldn't make it. Sorry" says Can as he greets her, giving her a quick hug.
"You better feel sorry. I hope you make it up to me on a way only you know how to" she says as she gives Can a peck on the cheek (I'd say side of the lip but ok).
"We'll see about that" says Can, half smiling.
Hold on a minute, am I dreaming or what? Is this the same person as last night and this morning or no!! How dare he act like that , flirt with other girls in front of me!! Although he's totally in his rights to, but it definitely doesn't hurt less. So what I did next was unprofessional of me, but I had to or I would end up screwing everything up.
"Guys sorry. I need to head home because I'm having a strong headache and feeling sick." I say, not even waiting for them to argue. I wave goodbye to everyone, including him, not saying a word more.
Flashback over

So yes. Two days, pretending on being sick, just to avoid facing reality.
Two days I haven't heard of him. He tried to call me ofc, but I didn't pick up. I'm acting childish I know but I can't help it. It's just a feeling I have that it's coming from the bottom of my heart that I can't quite make up my mind and decide if it's jealousy or what. Although I'm sure, I just don't want to admit it to myself that it indeed jealousy is what I'm feeling and I hate myself about it. It is in this moment that I figured out just how much I care about Can. Just how important he is to me. Just how much I love him and how much I need him to come here and tell me everything I need to hear right now. Just how much I need him to need me.. This situation got the best of me.. it's driving me crazy, because ever since we started filming EK, I haven't been more than 30 mins apart from him and now I haven't seen his face for 2 days and it's killing me. I need him to be here and look me straight on my face and tell me he loves me.. tell me that I am his one and only. That he only has eyes for me and that I'm the only one that he gives a fuck about. I need him to tell me that he is craving me as much as I crave him.. I need him to tell me he's mine only and that I am only his. I need him to show me that I am the one he's longing for, because God how I'm longing for him too. I need him to come over that door and explain everything or say nothing at all but drive me crazy with love.. I guess I kind of liked the way he made me feel that night.. like I'm the sexiest girl alive. I need him to give me that feeling over and over again.. I got used pretty bad to being someone he "loved". Maybe he does?! I need this to be cleared, I need to get it together and tell him straight ahead. But how am I gonna do that when he's tried to call me and I ignored him. Stupid, stupid!! I better go take a long bath and refresh my mind a little..
Just as I'm about to go upstairs, I hear a knock on the door. It's rare cause I wasn't expecting anyone, so I go to open it and the second I open that door, he doesn't let me greet him, instead he crashes me into the wall, closing the distance between us and starts kissing me intensely,passionately, violently, hungrily. As if he's trying to tell me that no one owns my lips but him, nobody else but him.