The Hushed One (Discontinued For Now)

Safe

Chapter 14:

Cassidy's POV:

I wake up to a field of daisies, birds chirping, I could smell the fresh water from the river. I stand up from where I was laying , I look down as I feel the green grass in between my toes. I have never been this happy to be in such a beautiful place. I feel like a little kid again and it feels amazing. 

I had reached the lake and sat down letting my feet in the water. I loved the way the cool breeze was flowing through my hair. I looked back at the water seeing the beautiful blue color, the way the water rippled making my reflection so blurry. I gasp as my eyes snap up immediately only to make contact with the beautiful woman standing not that far from. 

I start laughing hysterically as the tears begin to form. She looks at me with the same loving eyes as always and hasn't stopped smiling. She opens her arms gesturing for me to come to her. As soon as she opened her arms there was a bridge built with all the tiny pebbles from the river and I stared in complete awe as it formed together. Once it had finished coming together I didn't hesitate one second more and ran to my mother.

"Mum!" I yelled as I leaped into her arms. She laughed and wrapped her arms around me. I couldn't hold it in any longer, so I just let it all out. I was sobbing drastically as the salty tears rolled down my face. I could feel my mum caress my hair and hummed in a calming tone. Once I had calmed down, she pulled back cupping my face in between her hands.

"How are you my darling?" She asked me as she inspected my face. I just closed my eyes and leaned more into her hands seeking for her comfort not wanting for this moment to ever end.

"I'm very sorry mum... For what I did... I know you told me to hang in there a little longer, but it had become too much. I felt like I was drowning... I wanted it all to end. I couldn't take it anymore. I'm sorry for letting you down mother..." I removed my face from her hands as I hung my head in pure shame and disappointment.

"Oh my love, you did not disappoint me. You never have and never will. I love you my little Cass, forever and always. There is absolutely nothing in the world that you could do that wouldn't disappoint me." She told me as she lifted my face to look back at her. 

I don't know how I was this lucky to have such an amazing mother like her. I wiped my tears away and smiled at her, she returned the gesture by placing a kiss on my forehead. I wish she was still alive... She is what kept me sane. My mum was always and will still be my safe space.

She proceeds for us to move over to sit on the edge of the river, just like how I was sitting when I first woke up."Now sweetheart, I need to talk to you about something." She tells me with a serious tone. I just nod my head indicating her to go on. 

"You will not be staying here with me..." She states with a sad tone.

"But why?" I ask in confusion. She just looks at me and I can see the tears in her eyes. "Baby girl, you're only seventeen honey. You still have a long way to go. You still have to graduate high school which is a couple months away and then you'll go off to college, meet new people, get your own place. You'll find the love of your life, get married, have kids. I want you to live your life and explore what the world has to offer. Don't you want that?" She looks at me with a questioning face. 

I couldn't stand to see all the hope and dreams that she wants me to exceed, so I looked away. I don't want any of that and call me selfish, but I just want to be with my mom... I don't want to keep suffering. I am not okay, both mentally nor physically. 

"I want to be with you... I don't want to go back. It hurts too much mum. Please, I don't want to go back." I tell her as the tears are threatening to come out.