Losing It All // Alex Bowman

Chapter Five // Alex

Content Warning: [detailed] sexual relations between two consenting adults.

I groaned as Gwen's perfume filled up the small confines of my car. I could smell the floral scent along with the sweet whiskey she was drinking all night. It honestly took all I had not to push her back into her home and have my way with her the moment I saw her tonight.

Her curves mocked me, like a race track during a rain delay with no ending in sight. Then my eyes landed on her boots and the black stockings underneath her short dress. Not an inch of bare skin was shown and yet she had me growing hard and needing to touch her.

Restraining myself was key tonight. I needed to show her that I wanted us to work as a couple, that I wanted us to go out on a date and be together without sex. I realized today how things looked when it wasn't the case at all. She needed to know that all of my feelings for her started before I read those words on her computer screen.

Seeing her cry earlier killed me and I vowed to never make her cry like that again. So, I was determined to have the best night possible.

I knew her well enough that she enjoyed hanging out and listening to live music than some stuffy restaurant. I made it a point to stalk her Instagram, seeing where she likes to hang out and what type of drinks she was into. I was pleasantly surprised to find out we were into some of the same stuff even though we were complete opposites at times.

Sometimes it's the ones you never realize that would be good for you - are.

"Alex, can't you drive any faster?" I could hear the desperation in Gwen's voice. I knew if tonight led us to one of our beds, she had to initiate it. I didn't want to push her towards something she wasn't ready for, even though deep down I knew she wanted it as much as I did.

She wouldn't write about us fucking if that was the case.

I pushed my foot down a little more, watching the speedometer cross the 100 mph mark, eternally grateful the highway was empty as we sped towards Mooresville. I let go of the gas pedal when her hand landed on my thigh.

"I can't drive fast if you're going to distract me." I placed my hand on top of hers so she wouldn't move it.

"But don't you want to know what head feels like going 100 miles per hour?" I cursed at her sultry voice, wondering where this was coming from.

It had to be the alcohol.

"Fuck, if that does kill me, crashing would." I heard her pout at me saying no. I took her hand and brought it up to my lips. "Soon." I looked at her for a brief moment, the white lights of my dash causing her hazel eyes to glow with desire.

Seeing this side of Gwen set me on fire; it was like this good girl hid a sexy vixen that was only coaxed out at rare times. I was one lucky man to be able to see it within the last 48 hours and I couldn't help but wonder if anyone else has seen this side of her but then remembered that she hasn't been with anyone who cared about her pleasure.

I pressed a little harder on the gas pedal at that thought. I was determined to make sure she felt how she made me feel when she selflessly gave herself to me. Who does that? Make sure my pleasure is met without asking for some in return? I know I touched her... but somehow it wasn't enough to everything she's given me.

Gwen has given me so much that I felt like this night was only the start of giving myself to her. She deserves so much and I needed to figure out a way to give her everything in return and then some.

If she didn't want this night to end, I was going to make sure of that.

I barely had the car in park before she launched herself at me. I had to laugh at the urgency, but it got lost in a moan when her lips were on mine as she climbed over the center console.