Jai Brooks

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by leylabrooks

by leylabrooks

I pulled my razor blade out of my jewelry box and walked over to the bathroom.

Jai was out so luckily I could cut without him knowing.

I sat against the bathroom door with my knees up to my chest debating whether or not to carry on ruining my body.

But i couldn’t resist the urge.

Tears fell down my face as i slid the blade over my wrist multiple times.

I dropped the blade on the floor as i sobbed loudly.

"Y/N. Let me in!"

I felt the bathroom door pushing me slightly.

"No! No, Jai, you can’t come in okay."

He wasn’t supposed to be home. Not yet.

The door finally budged and Jai rushed into the room.

He looked at me then at the blade on the floor. Suddenly his arms were around me as he sat next to me on the floor while i cried.

"You’re- you’re not supposed to - to be home yet." I stuttered. "You’re not supposed to know."

"How long have you been doing this babe?" He asked.

"A year, ish. I can’t remember."

"You have to stop okay?"

I nodded. I know i have to stop. I’m trying to stop but the urge is too strong.

"It’s addictive."

"What would you do if i told you I self harmed."

"I’d tell you that you needed to stop and i’d cry because i can’t stand the thought of you being hurt or hurting yourself."

"Exactly."

"Jai i’m trying to stop! I’ve been trying for so long but i can’t. I- I need help."

He kissed the top of my head. “I’ll get you help baby. I’ll do whatever i can to help you stop.”

"Thankyou. I love you." I whispered.

"I love you too."

{credits to beausbuttox on tumblr}