I was on my way home from school when I decided to grab some food from the coffee shop where Carter had pick me up last Saturday. Calum couldn't make it because he had band practices with the guys. I made my way inside the shop only to be greeted by Carter and his friends. A sudden feeling of happiness traveled through my body.
"Hey, fuck buddy!" He laughed, receiving stares from people around us. The sudden happiness fell into a deep feeling of anger and disappointment. We didn't even do anything and now he goes running around town telling everyone I'm his 'fuck buddy'?
"I would like borrowing you sometimes" his friend let out and they all bursted laughing, "Man, you better not. She doesn't give good ones and she only moans for me" he said with a smirk plastered on his face.
My jaw dropped due to everything I've heard. Tears started forming in my eyes and one blink could set off a waterfall of tears and I'd be sobbing. I blinked multiple times trying to hide how awful I felt. I shook my head and stormed out of the cafe, receiving loud laughter. It filled my ears and it irritated me. Maybe I should've listened to Calum, he did tell me to avoid him in the first place because he was no good.
I called Calum's number waiting until the third ring. I don't care if he's going to rant about how he's warned me and just yell at me for not following him, I needed him at the moment.
"Hey, sup?" He answered, faint laughter on the other line and the constant banging of drums, "can you keep it down?" his voice complained coming out muffled.
I sniffed once and answered, "C-Calum I'm so-s-s-sorry" I tried talking but it only brought more tears to come running down my face. It was impossible to stop these tears.
"Hey, hey you okay?" He asked but before I could answer he spoke up, "obviously not, what happened? Do you want to talk about it? Or do you want to just cry and cuddle. Where are you? Are you hurt. I swear I'll--"
"Ca-Cal, its Carter. Please don't get m-mad at me, I'm sorry. I should've listen-ed to you. I'm so s-sorry. I'm so s-st-stupid, Calum" I answered between sobs.
"Fuck" he muttered, "I'll be there soon, okay? I'm leaving practices, do you want to talk while I come over or just hung up"
"I'm good" I said before hanging up the call. I walked further and immediately ran up the stairs to my room before mum could even notice. I sat on my bed, hugging my knees to my chest. I cried harder recalling everything that happened. Fuck, I hate myself.
Not more than 30 minutes of staring at the wall and crying, a concerned but upset Calum came barging into my room. I cried harder seeing him frown with his furrowed eyebrows and his chocolate brown irises looking at me.
"I'm sorry, C-Cal. You're so m-mad at me, y-y-you can just beat me up and tell me h-how stupid I am" I sobbed, covering my face with my palms and tried catching my breath. His face softened as he walked towards me. He sat across from me, sitting with his feet beneath him. He tucked the strands of hair, messed up in front of my face, behind my ears. He removed my hands that covered my face and cupped my cheeks, wiping my tears away. He stared at my eyes as if he was looking through my soul.
"Baby, shh, its okay. Everything's okay. I'm not mad at you baby, shh" he said as he pulled me towards him and set me on his lap. He rubbed circles on my back while he laced our fingers with his free hand, "Let it all out, baby"
"I'm stupid, Cal" I sobbed on his shoulder, leaving stains on his shirt. He didn't mind it anyway. I wrapped my arms around his neck, burying my face on the crook of his neck.
"Oh come on. He was an ass! Don't blame it on you. If its someone's fault, it's his. Not yours baby girl" he said smoothing my hair and getting his fingers tangled at the ends.
He shifted moving a bit grabbing something, "now, if you don't mind. We're going to finish this huge gallon of ice cream while we talk about how much of an ass Carter West is" he beamed at me.
"You're such a girl" I rolled my eyes at him, and rubbed my, now swollen eyes and red nose. I let a giggle escape my mouth as I crawled off of him and sat on my bed leaning at the cold wall behind me. Calum did the same and grabbed two spoons from the paper bag he had and handed one over to me.
"I can be whatever I want to be" he shrugged, I let out a laugh and hit his arm. God, I have the greatest best friend ever in the whole world. What did I do to deserve this? Do I even deserve this?
"I love you, Cal" I blurted out. Not sure how it came out of my mouth.
"Of course you love me, I'm the best best friend in the world, you gotta love me, Al" he rolled his eyes before saying, "and of course I love you too, you brat"
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I LOVE KELLIN SO MUCH LMAO IM LISTENING TO THEIR COVER OF IRIS LITERALLY CRYINDF !!
OK IM SO WEIRD AND AWKWARD BUT ANYWAY CALUM IS SUCH A GIRL AND U GUYS SHOULD FOLLOW ME UP ON TWITTER @/niallftstalker ILY ALL !!
