Dear Journal,
We did it again .. putting to much faith into one who will never understand us. I don't know what to do anymore besides be sad. I feel as though that is the only feeling I am capable of now. I don't know why I'm like this. I HATE MYSELF. I can't help it. It's either I'm too fat. I'm too loud. Why am I so dumb? Why did I think that was funny? Why can't I be normal? I try and try all the time to be what my parents and friends want me to be and it just get's exhausting. Everyday it's like a different person I talk to a different me I become which isn't a good thing. I want to be that girl who will go out in public and be herself no matter who she's around not the one crying in bed right now.
I just want to be happy.
I don't know if i will.
YOU ARE READING
Behind My Eyes
Adventureit's a little sad in some areas then others. my life's not horrible don't get it twisted there's just sad times and they all happen to hit at the same time. everyone thinks they know me but I mean unless they find this journal they don't really know...
