Save Me From Myself...Book 4

Sexy minx

18+ very nsfw parts of the chapter

Killian POV

"That's a nice name but I'm gonna call you bubblebutt, your ass is so round and sexy, I just want to sink my teeth in it." I said looking at him, loving his smile and how his captivating eyes sparkle.

"I've never been told that before but alright. You know I still have your 'gift' you made for me. I keep it in my nightstand, I haven't really felt the need to use a toy when I can get a real one." He smirked and I wanted to kiss it off his face.

"Yes that may be true but, none like mine." His scent is turning me on so bad my dick is hard as a fucking rock and leaking into my briefs, making it a little uncomfortable.

"Tis is true but you will never stick it in me, I don't bottom, my ex wanted me to but I refused, I just don't like the idea of a dick in my ass. I know it feels amazing to be the one giving, it's been a while though but you can get any ideas of you being in me out of your head." It's like he can read my mind. Damn.

"Why don't you want it that way? Are you worried it's gonna hurt?"

"No, it's more about who I am, where I come from, my life." He vaguely answered, making me think he must be a supernatural creature of high rank.

"So it's like an 'alpha pride's type of thing?" I asked and he finished his last piece of pizza before answering.

"You could say that. I'm not a little guy, I don't flaunt that I'm gay and no I'm not ashamed of it either, it's just how I feel. I can't really explain it."

"What about letting someone get on their knees in front of you, removing your clothes, freeing that hard cock and sucking your brains out?" I got off the stool and stood behind him, putting my hands on his shoulders, feeling his body relax and he leaned back into my body.

"I'm most certainly not against that." He whispered as I placed kisses on his neck, loving how turned on his is just by my lips on his sensitive neck.

"That feels nice but you need to stop." He whispered and my body did what he asked without me controlling it. What the fuck?

"You actually stopped." He said, sounding as surprised as I feel.

"I did." I said unsure of what the hell just happened.

"Thank you, now I know you can listen and stop when told."

"Not that I didn't enjoy what was happening and I know you were to, why did you tell me to stop?"

"Ok I'm gonna be honest with you Killian. I had my heartbroken and we were serious, very serious and some things happened and now we're not together. I feel things for you I have not even felt with him, I felt this way since I saw you in that alley and I'm so scared of getting involved with you, I don't want my heart broken again, I can't live through another one. I don't want to be used just for sex from someone who I feel things for, if I didn't feel this way, I'd fuck you in a heartbeat but I can't. I won't get attached again only to be hurt somehow. That is why I didn't say much when you were here, why I kept my distance because I couldn't fall in love with you no matter how fucking adorable you were with your gifts and sexy smiles you gave me. I only do one night stands for that reason, not wanting to get hurt." Damn he is actually talking but I don't like what he is saying because if I'm being honest here which is rare for me, I feel things for him and have since I felt him touch me.

"Would you believe me if I said you're not alone in that? That I felt things since that same moment you did? That since I left here, there is this void inside that has been empty until I came here tonight. Now, I feel that void has been filled and it is because of you for some reason. Do you believe in other things out there, creatures of the night type of thing?" He held no expression and just kept looking at me, looking into my soul it seemed.