When all was well and good. A journey that seemed promising and long-lasting , suddendly turns upside down in a single night. A series of mysteries unravel, including crazy stupid love, broken promises, unknown secrets burried deep within, that pu...
"Pranav"... Oh no!!! I have completely turned psychotic. Is it her voice I'm hearing? No, it cannot be. It surely can't be. " Pranav... Are you there?" It's actually her, I'm not dreaming, it's her...it's her.... The hoarseness in her voice, as a result of being mute all these days is clearly identifiable. I make my way towards the staircase ... skipping 2 to 3 steps at a time, pacing around as if, I reach even a second late...I could miss my train and would be left stranded on this deserted island.
I flung the door open, and there she is the girl I love.. seated on the mattress with tranquility. I could stand there all day, just gazing at her.
"Are you gonna walk in? Or just stand and stare at me, like I might die any moment and..." She scoffs.
"Stop it right there. No more saying the d-word in this house. Am I clear." I shut the door behind and and sit right opposite to her.
"Oooo... Look who's commanding. Where was this superhero a few days back." I notice a slight change in her mood, tinch of brilliance along those cheekbones.
"I gave you time... To collect all the broken pieces together. No amount of words, could have healed the loss." Igently tug in the mattress over her, and place her outstretched legs onto my lap.
"Hmm... Thanks for the time and I'm sorry, I didn't mean to you know.. The throw.... " She bends a bit and raises her head to touch my forehead, feels the plaster with her squishy fingers, her face droops.
"Ouch!!! It still hurts, the light-lamp you threw was also mad I guess...It gave me quite a hard blow... " I take her hands in mine.
"I'm sorry".... she mumbles.
"Let's talk about something else ...shall we?" She withdraws her hand from my hold, and looks outside the window. The only form of daylight that lightened the room.
"No .. I just ..want to clear this out." Her eyes still focusing on the window.
"I can understand. Ok, I am not angry or upset." I begin kneading her feet a bit, to get her attention back, and it does.
"Stop treating me like a baby, you can yell at me, fight...act like a boyfriend, be natural. I know why all the sympathy is running around. It's because i'm gonna d..."
"I said...no more d word..." she immediately fell silent.
"Ok...ok...but stop treating me like a baby." She pulls her leg back, and takes a 90° turn, lands her head on my lap and fixes her gaze on me.
"But you are my baby...Oh my baby..." I lean in a bit... Maybe get a ... smooch.
"Aww...stop it...you know how much I hate all the cheesy talks.. Did you notice praan...we have never had one of those girlfriend boyfriend talks..the day you proposed, and I puked..."Why should she talk about the throw up now... How can I kiss her!!! Shit!!! Bad timing.
"That was disgusting you know..." I comment
"Come on, you can't tell that to your gf. Everything I do, must be beautiful for you. Haven't you watched any movies? A reminder: I came back, just for you." None of the words get into my head, I can only feel those intense brown eyes, warming me up, any moment now I might just lose control.
"If I d- without giving you an answer back , how will you survive with that suspense. Wouldn't that kill you. Oh no!!! did she love me or not and what if you turn into a devdas"... She chuckles, it sounds like birds tweeting, all my thoughts are halted out.
"I would have proposed another girl. She was second on my list." I snake my hands around her waist, and she looks up.
"You naughty bastard"... Her eyes moves towards my hands, and quickly back to me. Interpreting both what I said, and what I just did. She quickly swats my hands away, and gives me a stern.
"Ok..ok...cool...Let's talk about something else."
"I wanna tell this to you. So, just listen... " She gets up, it's like she has an antenna or something that indicates my moods to her and shifts a few metres away from me and begins... "I wanna spill it all out. I have been numb for a few days, prehaps if I talk I will be fine.. At the hospital, the doctor's words had no effect on me I was least bothered. It was you and mom who were roaming around like dead fish. I had you people with me, so I didn't care, I trusted you guys that's what kept me unshattered. But, when ... When...wiping away tears.. mom...I just couldn't take it praan. I felt abandoned.. she left me without a message just the way dad did. Both of them had shunned me, and and I just couldn't believe it. How could both of them just leave me like that.
And.. I pretty much needed to end my life as well. I didn't find a purpose surviving, I even tried praan...to gulp down an higher dosage of the same drugs, the ones that are meant to cure me would end up killing me. But I just couldn't. My thoughts were fuzzy, I couldn't think straight. I wanted to die, to get over with all this..but I didn't know how?.. I felt like crap, an unwanted being. Today, I realised.... " she looked like she might collapse any moment. Her crestfallen look skipped my heart-beat.
"What?" My instincts all high in a sudden, it was good she moved a bit away from me, or else anything at all she just said would have never been registered, with me eyeing her like an eagle.
"That... My dad would have kept fighting to survive, If he hadn't believed in mom. He let go, only cause he believed Mom would protect me. Mom wouldn't... have......... breathed her last If ... She didn't believe in YOU. She knew praan... That night.... post dinner. She came to my room, you know when we were young..when mom walks in we used to pretend like we are sleeping even when we are wide awake. I did the same thing. I was an idiot, I missed the chance of seeing her alive. She was shivering and tears were flooding, she grabs a tissue from the table and sniffs ... Mom sat next to me, kissed my hand and sobbed. She finally said.. I love you.. but he loves you more, I misjudged him you made the right choice and gently placed a peck on my forehead and she walked out. I was beaming with happiness. That we are all gonna be one small family. The next day.... I ... I.... Nothing made sense, the way you were yelling in the hospital, and I had no one to express my anger. That's why.." she wasn't shivering anymore. All those tears restrained.
"You threw the lamp stand right on my face, and shut the door. That was the last time I saw you"... I conveyed..."your hmm...was the only sound I had been hearing for the past week. I was so anxious to see you, I had no idea whether you ate the meals I pushed in, you were already sick and when you just shut yourself in. I was going crazy on the outside." She moved closer to me and ran her hands behind my back, I embraced her into a hug, resting her neck on my shoulder slow sobs were heard. A few minutes passed and I could feel my shirt getting wet. Slowly she began...
"I'm sorry, It all finally made sense to me praan. It's like they say when one door closes another opens. Mom left.... And you entered.... You know what... We are even now praan." She mumbled under her breath
"In the sense? " I questioned gently patting her back.
You are all I have... And I am all you have.
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