money is tight no matter how much my parents try to pretend it's not
and going out food shopping is scary when the queues are halfway down the street
people are getting aggressive and scary and it's disorientating
to have people queuing outside my house makes me feel frightened, like the world's ending
and i don't know when i stopped trusting people but i don't trust anyone anymore
i don't eat much
i haven't for a while, call it a nervous reaction
but i don't feel hungry
like it's only one meal a day, snacking in between maybe once every four hours ? if i'm awake that is
and to be honest it could be more time than that
and it's scary
i don't understand why i'm not hungry
if it's saving money it's a benefit i guess, but it's weird
i just want things to be more normal
to find a normal level, whatever that is
