remember yesterday i said i thought i was in love with my best friend ?
we all met up yesterday and us two got very drunk
like everyone else was tipsy but we got very drunk
and there was a point we were lying on the floor in the hall and i thought fuck maybe i am
because i automatically moved my leg over her the back of her hips and pulled myself close
and she told me that i'm her favourite person in the entire universe and her face was so close to mine and i don't know what it was that i felt at that moment
then we moved so a friend could get past us and she was sat on the floor in the kitchen
and she couldnt stand without using me as a crutch, let alone walk into the living room, and every time we talked she wanted eye contact
when we were sat down in the living room she wouldn't sit anywhere but on my lap
and i know she's straight
and i know i'm very hungover right now so i don't know how clearly i'm thinking
but is the reason i don't care for boys because i prefer girls' attention?
i've never thought like this about anyone else except her
which is reassuring and terrifying at the same time
but i'm fine with being her best friend because she is my universe and i don't want anything to change
so i've got some thinking to do
i don't know if i want to post this because it's a momentary thought and i'm not sure if i want to remember this one
but have it anyway
no one knows about this so
