It is already pretty late and the apartment is dark when I enter so I am extra quiet.
I try to make no sound but then I stand at the door to the bedroom and hold. I don't feel tired and I don't want to disturb Andrew and Mick's sleep. So I make my way over to the kitchen and start to bowl some water. I know I wanted to be quiet but I want tea.
I pray that my two friends don't wake up from the noise. But I have no luck today. The moment I put hot water into my mug the door to the bedroom opens and out steps Mick. I watch him silently walking over to me.
"I am sorry. Did I wake you?", I apologize. Instead of assuring me I didn't wake him up or throwing insults at me he just hugs me. Something feels off about the hug though. He lets his entire weight rest on me.
"Are you okay?", I ask and he breaks our hug.
"How was the date with Thomas?", he asks still with hanging shoulders. Since we are both awake now I decide to chat.
I was so occupied with Thomas for the last days that I didn't notice Mick being in this mood. I make a second cup of tea for him and then sit us down on the couch.
"It was amazing", I start talking about my date. I tell him where we went and what he had prepared for me and how Angel, even though she wasn't present, ruined our makeout session. He listens and smiles but there is this cloud over his head that doesn't vanish. When I finish I let the silence rest for a while taking a sip of my tea and then ask him:
"Now you know how my evening went. How about you? What got you so down?"
"It's nothing really. It's just I have been thinking and I am kind of happy now but I don't want to ruin it." Okay, he is jumping with his thoughts.
"How would you ruin that? If you are happy, you are happy."
"It's not that easy."
"Yes, it is. You know you can tell me anything", I know he knows.
He takes a few sips of his tea and clears his throat.
"I have been reading the book you got from your professor and I kind of figured out that I am sensually attracted to you. I just love to touch you, to hear your voice, to see you. Ohh god that sounds so wrong. I swear I am not in love with you, but ...", he takes another sip.
"I love you", he whispers. His eyes stare into mine and I can see the panic rise. Before I can hug him, tell him it is okay, he looks away and starts apologizing: "Fuck, shit, sorry I shouldn't have said that. You are with Thomas and this will make things awkward. Just ... Just forget that I said anything."
He wants to stand up and I grab his hand. Then I pull him down and hug him.
"I love you too."
"No, you love Thomas."
"Doesn't mean I can't love you too."
"But what if Thomas doesn't like it. I don't want to be the reason you two break up, you just got together."
"He won't mind when he understands that I love you differently than him."
Mick snivels. God, that was really a burden on his shoulders.
"I don't want to torture you, I promise but I think we have to make this clear, so you won't break your pretty head thinking about it all the time", I breathe in. "As far as I understand you love me as a friend, maybe even family and you love when we cuddle when we speak, when we are together, even when we kiss."
I stop and wait till he nods against my shoulder.
"Do you also think about me romantically?", I ask and wait again. This time he shakes his head no.
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Sensuality
General Fiction#book2 | Koda is still not sure if telling Thomas his secret was a good idea. His other half backs away again, but Koda refuses to break down. Again. Now that his two best friends know about him being an incubus, a being of pleasure, they can suppor...
