Sensuality

VII - 3

Just minutes later Andrew and Mick are gone and Thomas, Angel, and I start to clean up.

Halfway through Angel almost drops a drinking glass. She is so tried. Her eyes aren't even half-open anymore and her clumsy feet drag over the floor. Thomas sighs at her with a smile, lifts her up, and gets her to bed. Meanwhile, I continue cleaning.

When he comes back I am almost finished. He wraps his arms around my waist and kisses my neck. It's not a peck like Mick planted there a while ago but a kiss that could leave a hickey. I like the idea of a hickey. It's been a while since Thomas gave me one.

"Did you like the surprise?", he mumbles into me. I can feel his breath on my skin and the vibration in his chest.

"I did, but don't you ever tease me like that again", I turn my head and nibble on his ear.

"You were very annoyed. I could tell." Of course, you did. I didn't make it very hard for you to see. "But getting back at me by injecting me with energy." He shakes his head in disapproval.

I, on the other hand, freeze up. How could he have noticed that? It was the tiniest amount of energy. No human should have been able to detect that.

"Don't worry I forgive you." He is interpreting my reaction wrong. He thinks I feel caught out.

"Thanks", I say even though I don't feel guilty about it. "You shouldn't have been able to feel it actually."

"Well, I did", he says with a smile. I can't bring myself to smile. It's too strange that he could feel the energy.

We finish cleaning and then make our way into his bedroom. We change clothes, brush our teeth, and then go to bed. But the amazing feeling of falling asleep next to him doesn't come.

I lie awake fall a long time. Normally the fact that Thomas could feel my injection of energy even though he shouldn't be able to wouldn't bother me at all. I am sure I wouldn't even think about it twice. But in connection to his excessive coffee consumption and the fact that he was restless because of me, it keeps me awake.

The nagging feeling that the answer to it all lies right in front of me is driving me crazy. It's like when you can't remember a word or a name but you know it is on the tip of your tongue. You just have to speak it out loud but it just doesn't work. It's frustrating.

To be honest, I am a little bit afraid of talking about it with Thomas. Not because he would just dismiss it and tell me I worry too much but because I am afraid I can't communicate the strangeness of it all to him. He is a newbie when it comes to my supernatural side. Equally, I don't think Andrew or Mick would understand either.

I need advice from someone else. Carefully I wriggle myself out of Thomas embrace. I get my clothes from the chair and my phone off the charger and then make my way out of the room.

Should I call my parents here or ... or should I go to the roof? I like the idea. It's warm enough outside. So I grab Thomas's keys to the apartment and go outside. The elevator takes me to the roof and thank god the door is still unlocked. As a safety, I put a little piece of wood under the door so it can't fall shut.

I am met with a beautiful view of the city. It is nice that the lights of the city can be seen through the window in Thomas's bedroom but this view is way better. I lean against the fence and let my eyes wander. I can just see the outlines of the mountains in the distance.

I look up. The moon is shining bright tonight. Slowly I let myself slight down until I sit on the ground my eyes still on the moon. The minutes tick by while the moon becomes veiled in a few almost transparent clouds.