Promise (Ateez au)

Chapter XXI

Wooyoung knew he had to face San someday, but he had hoped it hadn't been today. He just came back from his brother, who he was still trying to convince to give him some of the pills. Byeongkwan really was as stubborn as himself.
He only had entered the house for a few seconds before he heard his name getting called.

"Woo, can we talk? We have to talk this out." San said, taking Wooyoung's arm and pulling him with him.

"Let go of me, San!" Wooyoung pulled his arm away, gaining a hurt look from San. He decided not to say anything before being alone in his own room. They both sat down on the bed they had been all lovey dovey in only days ago.

"Don't hold back. Tell me everything you want to say right now. Don't worry about it hurting me, it hurts me more if you'll lie to me." San told the younger, carefully taking his hands in his own.

"Why are you acting like this? Why are you so mean towards everyone who I'm just friends with? Yeosang, Yunho, who's next? You must be glad I'm not that close to Seonghwa or Hongjoong, because you won't hold back on them. Then it's Mingi, right? You'll hurt him next ..." Wooyoung pushed San's hands away from his, not wanting him to touch him right now. He was trying to distance himself from the brunette and that would also mean no touching.

"You know I love you, Woo. But I don't get the feeling you love me as much as I love you. You're always hanging out with others and act as if I don't exist. I don't want to feel that way again, but you're making it hard." San explained. Wooyoung narrowed his eyes at his words, not believing he really said that.

"Again?" Wooyoung exclaimed in disbelieve. "You are telling me not to lie to you ... You really had the guts to lie to all of us like that?! You probably enjoyed the attention you got, didn't you? Oh, poor Sannie. He lost his memory, let's take good care of him so he won't feel sad. Cut that bullshit, San. I'm tired of it. So even though you know what happened, you're still not stopping it? Not even after knowing you killed my own fucking brother?!?!" Wooyoung wished he could stop the words from flowing out, definitely after seeing the look on San's face. He should've stayed calm, listened to what San had to say. Instead, he was accusing San of things he didn't know if they were really true or not.

"W-what do you mean?" San asked in confusion. It was clear that it wasn't faked, and it broke Wooyoung's heart seeing San like that. "I ... I only recently remembered a bit. Not everything of course. You didn't tell me we were together either. I don't know who your brother is or what happened to him, but whatever I did ... I-I'm sorry." The tears that threatened to fall out, were now making their way down the brunette's face.

"No, Sannie, don't cry. I'm sorry, I'm so sorry!" Wooyoung rushed to San, pulling him in his arms. He didn't mean to make the older cry at all, neither did he want to trigger something inside of his lover that might result in something he didn't want to do or would've done otherwise.

"You know I wouldn't hurt someone who means so much to you ... It hurts to know that I ... That I forgot so many things ... Help me remember, Wooyoung. Please." San begged the younger, looking in his eyes with tears and hope in his own. He softly stroked Wooyoung's cheek, letting him know he would always be there for him.

"It's better for everyone if you don't remember, San. Things happened and I'm sure that's the reason why you lost your memory in the first place. You got given a second chance, so please stop wasting it by wanting to go back to the past." Wooyoung softly smiled, taking San's hand away from his face and holding that hand in his own. "Let's just enjoy the moments we were able to get because of it."

"What was your brother like? If you could bring him back, what would you tell him?" San questioned, trying to read the emotions on the blonde's face.