Chapter 19: Blip On The Radar

3.4K 191 36
                                    

Happy Wednesday!  I know I say this a lot, but this is probably one of my favorite chapters. I hope you all enjoy it as much as I do!


~Carter~

The sweet smell of maple syrup and pancake batter had woken me from a deep sleep. I'd opened my eyes, both surprised and confused at my surroundings. It took me a moment to remember where I was and what I had done last night. But as I gazed around the sparsely decorated bedroom and stared at the discarded leather cut on the ground, it had all come back to me.

I had sex with Bucky last night. 

I had finally lost my virginity.

I sat up in his bed, fighting the urge to let out an excited squeal cos I couldn't believe it had actually happened. After nearly nineteen years, I was no longer a virgin and Bucky had been the guy to take my virginity. 

When I had imagined the guy I would have sex with for the first time, never in a million years did I ever think it would have been Bucky—or any Tribe member for that matter. I had been adamant that I would end up with some rich dude who would spoil me with the prettiest designer clothes and bags and get me out of the shithole that was Tooele. And yet, here I was, in Jack Buckner's bed and happy as a fucking clam. 

I hadn't meant to spend the night, but sex really took a lot out of you and we had both fallen asleep after a while. I'd woken up sometime between two and four a.m. and had half a mind to come up with a cover story for Cash. I'd texted him to let him know that I was staying at Tori's place for the night, knowing it would be enough to get him off my back. 

I very well could have woken Bucky up and headed home, but I didn't want to. 

I liked being in his bed, and I liked waking up in it even more. He was also helping his case by making me breakfast, cos I was fucking starving. 

I got to my feet, fully prepared to go into the bathroom to make the best of my appearance before I headed out to the kitchen and that was when I felt it. There was a soreness between my legs, a very present reminder of what had happened last night and the fact that I was no longer a virgin. I winced as I walked into the bathroom, both curious and nervous to see what I looked like in the mirror. 

I kept my gaze down for a few seconds as I approached the counter, cos I was pretty positive that I looked like a disaster right about now. When I finally looked up into the mirror, it was confirmed—cos fuck, I looked rough. 

My hair was matted beyond belief and sticking up in about twenty different directions. The red lipstick I had been wearing last night was now completely removed from my lips but smeared across all regions of my face and my mascara had smudged around my eyes, making me look like a raccoon. 

Bucky had fucked me looking like this? 

I stared down at my naked body in the reflection, wondering if it had looked different somehow—less virginal, maybe? I decided I wasn't sure, but I definitely felt different. I felt a new connection to my body and to Bucky that I'd never experienced before. Admittedly, sex with him did hurt a little, but once I got used to him inside of me, nothing ever felt that good. I had never felt that close to anyone before, both physically and emotionally. I was so overwhelmed with emotions by the end of it that I nearly wanted to cry. 

I didn't, but I was pretty fucking close. 

And even though it wasn't exactly what I imagined, or the most romantic first-time story in the world, I somehow knew that I would never regret the decision to lose my virginity to Bucky. I had feelings for him, I trusted him, and he made me feel safe. What more could I ask for? 

Ride Or Die (Hell's Tribe MC Series) [Book 5]Where stories live. Discover now