kim jennie | bts 8th member

new leaf - betrayed part 4 (requested)

jennie's pov ;

as i was sat between the 4 WINNER members, i felt pressured. it wasn't because i felt intimidated, it's just that i would have never thought about doing this ever in my life. 

yet i knew this was what i deserved, what i wanted.

this was my happy place now. 

i picked up the pen, pulling the stack of papers to my way and adjusted my hair away from my face. 

i looked around, from looking at YG himself, to the stylists, to the board managers, to the members or WINNER, and lastly, minho. they were all smiling, anticipating my next move. 

i brought the pen closer to the paper, and finally, i signed.

it was official, i had signed a contract with YG Entertainment. this was a new start, since i knew my last life went terribly wrong. 

which, speaking of, the boys hasn't talked to me at all. some of them even threatened me to get out of the house for betraying them. or so they called it.

i knew i did nothing wrong. they would regret me, i knew it.

but for now, that was the least of my worries. as i put the pen down, everyone clapped, which brought me to bring out the biggest smile.

minho brought me to a hug. no, we weren't official, but the man YG himself had already told us that it was okay for us to be together, just to be safe and stay on the low till a couple years after i debut.

but he said if we did get caught a couple months after i debut, it would be fine.

we were relieved to hear that. 

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my soon-to-be ex manager and i are back in the old house. the bangtan house. they were officially 7 now, not 8. and all of them are now boys.

it made me sad that i wasn't in this group anymore but i knew i did this for a reason. 

my manager and i are packing stuff in my bedroom. seeing boxes almost all full with my stuff, the sadness hit me once again, but i tried not to show it. especially when the door of my room was open and the boys who were sitting on the couch outside could see me.

they still hasn't talk to me. but i didn't care anymore. there was no point to make friends with them anyways. 

i felt guilty, sure. afraid that ARMY would say that i left bangtan for something so petty. but they didn't know what happens behind the scenes. 

i don't know the amount of times i've had to skip meals because they didn't leave me any food. some days, i don't eat at all, thinking i would eat during the next meal, they'd ignore me or not leave me food at all. 

i could go out and get food, but at that moment of time, the press was literally outside of our house, waiting for the moment one of us goes out, so they could ask us about the new scandal about me signing in a new label. 

at that point, it was only rumours, since everyone knew i became close with YG himself and went distant with bangtan. 

i was expecting mean comments about me, but surprisingly, they had given me nothing but support. and i was happy about that.

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packing the last few things in my room, the only things left are my furnitures like my bed, the table i used for music and the swivel chair i loved a lot. 

i left it since i knew, as i got a new place, i didn't need it. i would get new furniture. 

did i mention, i got my own apartment?