Life Hurts but Heals

Chapter 12- Why?

Soon as I gain my consciousness back, I still see that a brown bag is still over my head. I try to move my hands, but they're tied to a chair.

I don't see what the fuss is all about. Yeah, I found a way to go to Heaven, but I'm sure many other people have also.

It's getting a little hard to breathe now. My breathing gets heavier and thicker. Help.

My eyes start to slowly close, but before they shut completely, a boy that looks around my age come by my side, but I don't know how I can see them with this sack over my head. But I can see a black outline of his body.

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I come back to life and find that I'm in front of these pearly gates again. Jesus is standing in the middle of the gates and starts to walk towards me.

"Hello, Jordyn. Nice to see you again," he says with a smile. His teeth are like pearls.

"Hello, Jesus," I return a smile, "I don't mean to sound mean, but why am I here exactly?"

"Ah, yes. Well... you became unconscious, and your brother thought this would he a good time to talk to you."

"O-okay."

He waves his hand as he did before and I expect to see Greg, but it's Logan.

When he comes clear, I stare at him coldly.

He holds his hands out in defense, "Jordyn, I know you're angry because of our last talk, but please hear me out. I know I was rude and obnoxious, but I knew that I was going to die at my age ever since I was ten. I knew that Mom and Dad were going to go when they did to, and I knew that you were going to be on your own one day. That's why I tried my best to keep you from anyone else ever since because I didn't want you to depend on someone or get hurt when you would have lost everything else. I knew I had to make you mad so you wouldn't miss me as much. I'll explain that later tonight when you fall asleep, but remember what Rue said when you visited her for the first time after Greg stabbed you? 'Be careful who you hang out with.' She was talking about Finnick. She knew this was gonna happen just like I did."

"So you knew everything was going to happen and you didn't tell me?!"

"Yes, and I know that was harsh, but how was I to explain that to a kid. It was hard for me, and I am five years older."

"Yeah... I guess that makes sense. How did Rue, you, and Greg know that all if this was going to happen. And you could've told me about all of this when I became a little older. Especially right before all of this."

"Yeah, I could've, but knowing the future changes a person's life forever. God and Jesus have a plan for all of us, and part of your plan was to go back to Earth to protect Greg. You did the right thing; he just died too soon, but God knows what's best. I would've told you, but it messed with my head, and I was very intelligent-"

"Oh, so I'm not smart?" I ask playfully. I'm trying to make the mood a little lighter.

"Yes, but that's not what I meant," he smiles, "Anyway, do you understand now?"

"Yes. I just have one more question. Will I see you in my dreams like I will Rue and Greg?"

"Yes, of course. You do want to see me, don't you?"

"Of course!"

"Alright then."

A clock dings.

"I gotta go," he says, "but I'll see you tonight. And remember, keep an eye out for who you hang out with. 'Never change, Jordyn. Never change.'"

He goes back into the gates.

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Everything goes black once again, and when the light begins to reappear, I feel like I'm drunk.

Hangover? No. The loss of oxygen made me unconscious. This shouldn't be a hangover.

So Logan wasn't the annoying older brother. He was trying to help me... I feel so horrible. I begin to cry, and that's when the sack is pulled off of my head.

"Hello, Jordyn," smirks Finnick.