I Think I Might Be

Chapter 10

Ava decided to forget about Bri for now. She wanted everything to get better, but she'd rather focus on Maya. Right now, she wanted to figure out how to tell her she loves her. She wished she had Bri to help her, but oh well, she'll just have to brainstorm on her own.

Ava thought about doing something special for Ava to tell her- like writing a poem or song but that seemed corny. She thought about maybe just being really casual and texting her or doing it over the phone, but that seemed too casual.

Ava couldn't even figure out why she was stressing about this so much. She had told men she loved them before, and it was never this hard. Maybe that was because she never said it first and she was completely sure the other person was into her. Maya had to like her though. She could tell by the things she said and the connection they had. There was no way she could fake that, and there was no way she was with another woman too. When would she even have time? They were always together. No, it should not have gone this far, but what if this changes everything? What if Maya feels the same way and she leaves her fiancé? They could be happy together. That was the only thing Ava could think about.
Ava got dressed to go over Maya's house and she was really nervous. She bought a rose and held it in her hand when she knocked on the door.

"This is for you beautiful" Ava said as she handed her a rose.

Ava walked in and the two sat on the couch.

"Aww thank you!" Maya replied.

"There's something I want to tell you!" Ava said.

"Ok. I have something to tell you too" Maya said less enthusiastically.

"Ok, well you go first. I want to have your full attention when I tell you mine" Ava said.

"Ok. Um.. I guess there's no good way to say this" Maya stated as a look of concern panned over Ava's face.

"We can't keep doing this" Maya said.

"What? Why?" Ava asked.

"I'm moving" Maya said.

"Moving where?" Ava asked.

"To California to be closer to John"

"What? When?" Ava asked

"In two weeks" Maya replied.

"TWO WEEKS?? WHY ARE YOU JUST NOW TELLING ME?" Ava asked angrily.

Maya looked down and started playing with the couch pillow.

Ava started to cry.

"Aw babe, please don't cry" Maya said.

Ava wiped her tears away "Please tell me your joking babe."

"I wish I was babe" Maya said.

Ava continued to sob. She was getting mad now. "WELL WHY WOULD YOU WAIT TO TELL ME THIS NOW?" She asked.

"I... I don't know. I didn't really know how to tell you" Maya admitted.

Ava went quiet. She sat on the couch crying staring straight ahead. She was filled with emotion. She didn't know what to say or do. She came over to tell Maya she loved her, but she didn't know if she should say it now. Would it change anything? Did Maya even care about her feelings at all? If she did, she would have told her about moving sooner.

A mixture of anger and sadness filled her body and she didn't know how to react. She couldn't stop herself from crying. She couldn't believe that the woman she loves is moving away. Maybe if she told her how she felt, she would stay.

"Babe, can you please say something?" Maya said getting Ava's attention again.

"I... I... just...." Ava managed to get out between sobs.

"It's ok. I get it" Maya said.

Ava laid down in Maya's lap and continued to cry. She just wanted to hold Maya tight and never let go.

"I can't let you go" Ava said sobbing "Please don't go."