Finding true happiness (a 5sos fanfiction)

Chapter 31: Everything Ends Up In Tears

I woke up with the feeling of vomit about to escape my mouth. I ran to the toilet and vomited until there was nothing left. 'Florence are you alright?' I heard Michael outside the door. I cleaned up and flushed the toilet and washed my hands. 'Yeah can you get me a glass of water?' I said while drying my hands. I heard Michael run downstairs and I unlocked the door and walked back to bed. Michael came back up with a glass of water for me 'Here you go,' he said handing me the glass. 'Thank you,' I barely even spoke. I took a sip and my eyes were closing again. 'By the way I invited your friends over for you, you know for Christmas,' Michael smiled and pushed a loose strand of hair behind my ear. 'What?' I bolted up spilling water on the sheet. 'There coming over this week,' He trailed looking kinda worried. 'How am I going to tell them,' I stood up and started removing the wet sheets. 'There your friends it won't be that hard,' Michael said helping me with the sheets. 'Thats what you think,' I sighed.

Later that day I watched movies downstairs with Michael. In my head thoughts were racing through my head about telling the girls and the whole abortion. I really don't know how there going to react. Angry? Shocked? Tearful? I also need to tell the guys and Luke isn't going to be happy about it. I leaned into Michael and started falling asleep trying to forget it all. I woke up about an hour later in my bed, without Michael. There was a note on the side:

Gone home, were in the studio today love you
Mikey xxxxxx

I'm all alone. I decided to call Ruth and see when there coming over. 'Hello,' I heard Ruth's voice which made me smile. 'Hi Michael told me your coming over here for Christmas,' I said picking my nails. 'Yeah! We're leaving tomorrow,'
'Great I can't wait to see you all again,' I beamed. 'Me too! Well I better go this call is going to be expensive!' Ruth giggled, 'Okay well I'll see you soon!' We said goodbye and hung up. Leaving tomorrow! This panics me more about telling them. I'm not going to get an appointment by then. I started panicking and shaking. I needed someone to calm me down before I have a meltdown, but I was all alone. I couldn't call Michael, Luke, Cal or Ash. I feel so stressed and worried. I tried counting to ten even though that never helps. I needed someone.

Then that's when I heard the door knock. I opened up to see Luke handing me a cuddly penguin and chocolate. 'What's this all for?' I gushed, 'It's for Chloe, can you put it under your tree for Christmas?' He asked me. Sounding a little disappointed I said 'Sure, are you finished?'
'Yeah I just thought I'd come over and see how my best friend is,' he beamed and kissed my temple. 'Aww Lucas your too cute,' I giggled and let him in.

I was in the kitchen making Luke a drink when I had another urge to be sick. I sprinted upstairs to the bathroom and let it all out. 'For Gods sake,' I whispered.
'Florence what's up?' I heard him by the door. I cleaned up and washed my hands. 'Don't worry I think I'm okay,' I wobbled. 'Yeah sure...' Luke crossed his arms and gave me a serious look. I didn't want to tell him but he's my best friend after all. I was feeling sick again, how is he going to react? 'I'm pregnant!' I bursted and ran into his arms. 'W...what?' Luke stammered. Oh great he's pissed at me. 'Don't blame it on Michael,' I sobbed into his Blink shirt. 'Wait it was Mikey!' He pulled back. 'Don't get mad at him please!' I cried harder. 'I'm not mad, I'm fuming!' He shouted and stomping around. 'I'm getting an abortion,' I whispered and looked away. 'Oh,' Luke said more calmly. 'I don't want to kill it but I'm being forced to by my parents and Michael,' I sobbed. Luke sat next to me and wrapped his strong arm over my shoulder. 'I know Florence but you can't be wasting your life looking after a child, you should be out and having fun while your still young,' Luke hushed. I took a deep breath and held my tears back. 'Don't be mad with Michael,' I choked on air. 'I won't,' Luke whispered and he gave me a huge hug.

I was feeling sleepy again so Luke carried me to bed. I fell asleep instantly even though I heard loud noises from my Xbox. I woke up and the whole band was there. Calum was splayed out on the floor with his controller. Ashton was on the beanbag tweeting and Luke and Michael were on the bed with me. I looked up at the tv screen and saw that Calum was playing FIFA 15. I sighed and looked to my right and Luke was texting Chloe. I looked to my left and saw Michael looking at pictures of us two together. 'Where are those pictures from?' I asked him sleepily.
'Oh your awake, there from our day at the arcade,' Michael smiled at me.
'Oh my god I look so weird,' I sighed.
'You look stunning!' I shook my head and sighed.

I kicked everyone out the house for the night. I vomited once again before I slept, how am I going to deal through a proper pregnancy when I am ready for babies. I'm still waiting for a call from Dr Claire for an appointment. It takes so long which pisses me off like mad. I'm not fat but I'm bloated, I can only fit into sweatpants and I can't even strip in front of Michael because I'm loosing so much confidence. The abortion was making me feel sick and like the worst person on Earth, but it's for the best apparently...