People I Don't Know

Bad dream

"No man!" I heard Erin saying.

I can't hear Federer voice, he's standing at a distance.

I heard my name in mid of their conversation, but I don't know what they are exactly talking about.

"Yeah, she asked me for help," Erin said.
When did I ask him for help? What help? I frowned my eyebrows and started listening keenly.

"It won't last more than a month," Erin said.
What are they talking about??

"She is too afraid of Luis, she always keeps checking whether he's around or not," Erin said and I heard him laugh after those words.

Okay, they are definitely talking about me. But he is making fun of me, I didn't like it. I kept my mouth pouted and continued listening.

"She will find another, I'll help her," Erin said leaving me confused.

"I can convince her, she said she trusts me" Erin and started laughing aloud.

What's so funny about that?? I mumbled in my head and kept my brows furrowed.

Federer joined in his laughter, I think Federer started walking close to Erin.

I heard Federer voice as it slowly fade in "I thought you like her, as you are spending so much time with her"

I got his words clear, my heart started beating louder and my ears waited anxiously for Erin words to come out.

"Noo" I heard Erin say, breaking my hope and my heart. My face became gloomy by his one word.

"She's fun to be around with, that's it" I heard Erin words fade out and they left the balcony. Fun to be around?? That's it?? That is what he feels about me?? It made me feel awful and angry.

I went back inside my room and sat on my bed. If he doesn't like me, then why he's crawling for my kiss?? He's just using me for his physical pleasures. Hugh! What can I expect from a guy with a bad boy image?? The rage inside me increasing as I imagined his face.

Then suddenly my anger turned into tears and rolled out of my eyes. I couldn't control my emotions, I thought he likes me the way I do. Just now he made me smile being nice and saying sorry. Then what is this? Why is this all for?? I shouldn't have increased feelings for him. I felt like stupid believing him.

I tried to sleep with a heavy heart, trying to escape from this bad dream that started a month ago.

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Sleep didn't fix me. I felt dejected and vexed at the same time. I don't have the mood to attend college, so I decided to stay home. I called Rachel and said that I won't becoming. And I asked her to come over to my place for a sleepover along with Tori, as I wanted to share my feelings with them. She said okay.

I stayed in my room doing nothing, then my phone started ringing popping up Colin name on the screen. I can't talk with him right now, so ignored him. And felt bad for ignoring a nice guy like Colin for a jerk like Erin. I should hate myself for this, damnit!

Seriously I'm not that type of person who would starve themselves when they don't feel okay. I'm not, definitely not. I went down to eat my breakfast as my stomach started grumbling. While eating my train of questions arise in my mind about Erin words last night. "It won't last more than a month", is he talking about his relationship with me? But right now I don't want to care. I won't, I'll stay away from him.

I laid down on my bed again after eating my breakfast. I'm somewhere in between nothing to do and don't want to do anything.

They say sadness brings unwanted tiredness, I'm feeling it right now. I hugged my knees like misery covered all my body. I closed my eyes, trying to not think about anything and I fell asleep.