Lone wolf// P. JM x K.TH

Chapter 20

The morning was dull.

Sky gray and cloudy.

The weather seemingly reflecting the at atmosphere in Taehyung's bedroom.

Said male lay awake in bed, his lover curled next to him, bandaged wrist resting on his side.

He hadn't slept a wink that night.
He was to scared that Jimin would be gone when he woke.

He had spent the night clinging to the sleeping boys waist, crying silently as not to disturb him, his thoughts clouded by worry sadness and pain, which prevented his sleep.

It wasn't the first time Taehyung had bore witness to when Jimin's demons managed to break free, taunt him at his weakest, and etch them selves on his skin.
But never the less, the pain and sorrow felt the same.

Taehyung loved Jimin. He loved him with all his might.
But the fact that Jimin was not alright, that he suffered and felt pain,
made him feel like his love was in vain.
That he wasn't helping Jimin the way a boyfriend should. That he wasn't making him happy the way he could.

He hated that.

He wanted his baby to be happy.

But he didn't know what he was doing wrong.

He hoped an prayed that yesterday would be the last of its kind as he was determined to rid Jimin of the  demons in his mind.

Once and for all.

He gazed at his sleeping angel beside him. Hair was spread in such a way it looked like a halo over his head, his sleeping features peaceful, a much better sight than weeping ones.

Jimin was beautiful.

Both inside and out.

It made Taehyung wonder why god had chosen to punish such a person with a such a difficult life.

He traced his finger along the bandage, up the angels arm, over his shoulder up his neck and into his hair, brushing it behind his ear, letting it linger before cupping his jaw, thumb gently rubbing the previous tear stained cheek.

Said angel began to stir, shuffling slightly, legs stretching out with a sleepy groan.

He eyes fluttered open meeting the ones gazing back at him.

A lump formed in his throat as the events of yesterday were remembered. Eyes filling with guilt.

"Jimin, baby."
Taehyung said, hand still on the others cheek.

"Talk to me, explain what makes you do this."

Jimin's eyes squeezed shut, shaking his head.

"I'll sound crazy."

"No, you won't. I'll listen and try to understand, I want to help you be able to stop. I can't let you keep doing this. It hurts me, that you feel like this."
he eyes swimming with sincerity as he spoke the truth.

A slight whimper left Jimin's lips as he agreed, trusting his lover, wanting his help.

" There's this voice, in my head." he began swallowing deeply.

"When something bad happens, and I feel as if it's my fault, I hear it. It speaks to me, it taunts me, telling me bad things, pushing and encouraging them."

"A voice?" Taehyung questioned, Jimin nodded and continued

"It reminds me of what happened to my family, how it was my fault, how all I ever do is cause pain and spread it, that damage and trouble follow me wherever I go.
I feel so much pressure, stress, like I'm about to explode if I don't release it, if I'm not punished for my actions and faults. That's what makes me do it."

Taehyung nodded along to his explanation. Making sure to take in every detail, understanding so he could find a way to help.

" Minnie, I think what you need to do it's let go, let go of your past. This voice, it sounds like guilt, that you're holding over yourself. If you let go then the voice will go too. If that guilt is gone, then it'll have no hold over you as you will have overcome it."

Jimin nodded understanding what Taehyung was saying. It made sense.

" I love you and I'll help you, I want to be your light baby, when your in darkness, so you won't hurt anymore, we'll rid the guilt together, but please promise me, promise me now, even if you feel that you're alone. "

Taehyung asked holding out his pinky.

" Don't throw yourself away. Don't leave me before we do."

A small smile appeared on Jimin's lips as he intertwined his tiny pinky with Taehyung's long one. Him already begining to feel stronger knowing that he'll soon be rid of the devil on his shoulder and the taunts it whispers in his ear, through the help of his lover.

" I promise. "

"I promise I'll stay"

"Just like your tiny pinky."

The two chuckled at Taehyung's comment and at the touch of their thumbs the promise was sealed.

The clouds began to clear, the sky brightening as the sun begun to shine.

The day was now bright, as was the future.

But, there was a storm headed their way.

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~"Stay by my side.
For eternity, keep staying here, stay, hey. Like your tiny pinky." ~