When You Love Someone

•Chapter twenty six

February turned to march, days were spent cuddling with Robyn when i got home from school and looking after Robyn. Robyn still hadn't had the okay to go back to school. School. school was hell on earth, word had got around about the kiss between Jason and Robyn also about how Jasmine was pregnant. people kept wondering where Robyn was but none of us said anything. the popular six became the sinful five.

today i was sitting in Robyn's living room doing homework as Robyn was watching tv.
"i am not looking forward to going back to school is all i can say" she laughed, i replied matching her laugh. i got back i doing my homework.
"is it really that bad? school i mean" Robyn asked sounding slightly concerned. one part of me wanted to tell her everything but i didn't want her to worry and for it to hold up her recovery. then again i didn't want her to be hit with it straight away. i sighed and looked at her.
"it's not the worst. Jason is no longer hanging out with us, everyone is wondering where you are, everything is good with our friend group. people are saying awful things though but at least we all have each other." i said, Robyn smiled making me thinking i did the right thing. she patted the empty space next to her in the sofa and i sat there. she pulled me into a hug, i placed my head on her shoulder and she rubbed my arm. she kissed me on the forehead and butterflies appeared in my stomach.
"babygirl. you know everything will be okay, no matter what happens we will have each other like you said." Robyn said and i nodded my head.
"ow you banged my chin" she joked and i laughed. i nuzzled my head into her neck.
"i should probably get back to work" i said not really wanting to move.
"i have a better idea" Robyn said before turning us around so she was lying on top of me. she started to kiss me and i kissed her back. we carried on like that for ten minutes before i pulled away.
"seriously i need to do my maths" i said, Robyn nodded her head.
"okay" she said before kissing me one more time.

"do you have to go?" Robyn asked pouting and i laughed lightly. she always did this when i had to leave. i placed my hands on her arms and she wrapped her arms around my neck. i looked into her eyes, there would never be a time where i couldn't get lost in the beauty of her eyes. i tucked a piece of hair behind her ear and she blushed. i placed my hand on her cheek, she tilted her head to the side and smiled.
"you know i have to go but i will be back here tomorrow okay baby? i love you" i said.
"i know, i love you too" she replied. i quickly kissed her before walking back to my house.
A/N-TW, b*****a.
i walked into my room and finished off doing some course work. i was getting changed when i caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror, wow i had gained a lot of weight. i remembered what my dad said to me last year "i don't want a fat daughter". just thinking of that made me want to cry, i felt over whelming feelings to throw up again. i didn't realise i was crying until my sight was blurred and i stumbled into my bathroom.

i immediately fell asleep i was exhausted. i didn't dream.i felt dumb when i woke up, i always woke up early even when i didn't want to. i gave up trying to go back to sleep after half an hour of lying awake. i went downstairs and sat in the empty kitchen. i started out our big windows and sighed. i decided to go for a run, i walked upstairs and put on some sports gear. by sports gear i mean lululemon leggings, a sports bra and a loose crop top. i found my trainers finally and connected my airpods to my phone. i played some music and ran out of my warm house into the cold night.