When You Love Someone

•Chapter five

Robyn's POV
"what?!" Lilith screamed after i told her about what happened.
"so your like best friends now?" she asked exited.
"yeah i think so... she said we still can't act like friends at school because of the whole popularity thing" i replied, Lilith frowned.
"mmmh okayyyy" she said not sounding convinced.
"it's hard for her okay? you don't know everything" i said standing up for her. i understood that it was hard for her to just give up her friends at the drop of a hat. i was just happy we are finally friends, Lilith made a non convinced sound. i rolled my eyes and fiddled with my hair.
"i just don't want her hurting you. no one hurts my best friend" Lilith demanded, i smiled at her. i was so lucky she was in my life not everyone finds their best friend but i'm happy i did.
"okay so what are you wearing tomorrow?" Lilith asked.
"god why are you always talking about clothes?" i joked and she threw a cushion at me.
"i'm serious about this whole professional designer thing" Lilith answer whilst flicking her hair back. she walked over to my wardrobe and started looking through my clothes. she picked out a white cropped top, black and white bottoms and yellow cardigan (see image two). i nodded my head again bored with Lilith throwing clothes at me.

Ashley's POV
they didn't even realise i was gone, i wasn't there the whole weekend and they didn't know. i sat in my room and decided to text the one person who made me feel like an actual human, Robyn. i know we've only become close to her this weekend but she makes me feel safe, i feel like i can be my true self around her. i got out my phone and opened Robyn's contact.
Me:
hey, how are you? x
Robyn:
hey ashy! i'm good yeah wbu? x
Me:
not too good actually my parents didn't realise i was gone the whole weekend... at least i'm not grounded! x wuu2 x
Robyn:
Lilith just left so i'm cleaning up her immense amount of wrappers, she is lucky she has a fast metabolism cause she does sports! and that really sucks Ashy... you can come round any time you know x
Me:
thanks Rue... i'm so sorry about the whole we can't hang out during school thing. i promise one day soon i will hand out with you all the time :) xx
Robyn:
i can't wait for that day and seriously it's okay i don't expect you to leave your friends at the drop of a hat even if they are fake friends... i'm just glad we're friends. what are you going to do about Jason though? xx
Me:
honestly i think after this week i will no longer be living a double life and i can actually be myself at school for once. xx
Robyn:
that's sounds good xx
Me:
it really does xx
Robyn:
i miss you already xx
Me:
i miss you too xx
Robyn:
i gtg now sorry. text me whenever okay? xx
Me:
okay byee xx
i put my phone down and laid back on my bed and closed my eyes, i feel asleep like that with a big smile plastered across my face.

the next morning i was for once exited for school, this is day one of my plan to get rid of all the toxic people in my life. i had a shower and got dressed into a white top, black skirt and mustard coat over it(see image one). i put on natural makeup and picked up my Marc Jacobs bag. i walked downstairs to see neither of my parents where in, a nice peaceful morning for me. i ate an apple and scrolled through instagram. i left the house soon after to meet Jason and Jasmine but the school gate, i walked there enjoying the last bit of bliss of being myself until i turned the corner into school. i walked down to the gate and saw Jasmine wasn't there. i walked over to Jason and he looked angry.
"is everything okay babe?" i asked smiling knowing what he was going to say next.
"no it's not. i was worried about you, you've ignored Jas and i all weekend. what's been up with you lately?" he said quietly but menacingly. i pretend to look sad and made my eyes look at my shoes.
"i'm really really sorry, i had my phone in the store and i couldn't reply to anyone. i didn't mean for you to worry" i said but he wasn't having any of it. he shoved his phone into my face and showed my pictures of Robyn and i went i saw her on Friday.
"well explain why you were hanging out with the creep and what you had your headphones plugged into if it wasn't your phone?!" he shouted this time, people look at us and whispered. i had this new found  anger inside of me and so i shouted at him.
"you know what Jason, has it ever crossed your pea sized brain that maybe i didn't want to message you or even know you. look at us, all three of us only use each other to be more popular but in sick of it! look around Jason these people who i know are looking at us right now are so invested in what they think is our lives but actually it's all a show." i began before facing are audience that was forming.
"all of you don't know me, you don't know any of us so why do you commit your high school lives to trying to be out friends? being popular sucks you may think it's great and it the easy route through high school but every move you make you have to be cautious in case someone is watching or will over hear what you say! you see these photos, that person is the one girl i can be myself around. the only one who expects me for me and not this fake show and i'm about to walk into that school and kiss her because guess what loyal fans i'm Bi and i have a crush on a girl. so you can all leave me alone and never talk to me again" i screamed before running into the school still on an adrenaline rush. everyone was looking at me but i immediately found Robyn.
"hey Ashy are you okay you seemed pretty angry..." she started but i cut her off by kissing her. she soon kissed me back and moved her hands to sit around my neck. we broke apart from the kiss and rested our foreheads against each other's.
"so you like me back then?" she asked jokingly. i moved my head and looked her dead in the eyes.
"wasn't it obvious?" i said before kissing her again.