When You Love Someone

•Chapter thirty

A/N- this shows what a day is like for Ashely in a mental institution i hope you enjoy this chapter.

it would start with the nurses, they would come in at 6 in the morning, it might seem early but after 3 weeks you get used to it. they would come in and tell my roommate and i to get ready. they would give us a glass of water for us to drink first thing and watch us get ready. i had a shower every morning so i headed into the shared bathroom, again with nurses watching us. luckily in the ED unit we could have shower curtains around us so we don't trigger the others. i showered and got dressed in a pair of leggings and a jumper WITH NO STRINGS. yes we weren't allowed strings. i put on my trainers with no laces and headed to the canteen. breakfast was probably one of the most painful meals, every morning i had to eat eggs, sausages, baked beans and toast. if i didn't eat they would have to connect me to an IV drip machine. i liked to read while i ate to distract myself from eating therefore it took me around 2 hours to eat.

after breakfast i had a free half an hour. i went back to my room with Sophia, my roommate, we had become quick friends. we really got each other and it was nice that i had a friend in this hell hole. i got out my Nokia brick with no camera on it, we could have phones if they didn't have cameras on them therefore old phones all the way! i send a quick message that actually took me around 10 minuets to write out.
Me: good morning, it's hell over here. how are you? i miss you loads xxx
Robyn: hello baby, over here sucks without you :(. i miss you a bunch but you being there is what's right for you. i love you xxx
Me: i know i know. i love you more baby xxx
Robyn: no you don't xxxx
Me:don't argue with someone in a physic ward! i love you most xxxx
Robyn: haha okay now go get ready for your day. i love you bye baby xxxx
Me: okay bye bye. i love you too xxxx

i headed to my appointment with the dietician where they talk to you about your meal plan. weigh you and measure you. it was quick and  annoying that i couldn't see what they were doing actually no it was annoying i couldn't see the numbers. afterwards i headed to group therapy, it was so stupid. you had to talk about your problems in front of everyone then play group games.

i found Sophia and we chatted as we walked to the games room. others sat in a circle of chairs we joined them. honestly group therapy was really triggering, after talking which i didn't of a lot of we played silly games. after group therapy we had individual therapy, that was a lot better. my therapist was called Doctor Allison. she had a bowl of chocolates on her table. she did her therapist smile and nod thing as i sat down.
"hello Ashely, how are you today?" she asked.
"i'm actually hungry." i said and she hid a smile.
"can i have one please?" i asked pointing to the bowl of chocolates.
"of course take as many as you want. now let's talk about your progress. you are doing very well, and we are all proud of you. i think you know how well your doing." she said and i opened my second bar of chocolate, what i was hungry! we talked for another fifty minutes then i went into the rec room to meet Sophia. i joined in on her game of card with some of the others in the ward.

later that day i sat in the study room doing school work after lunch. i only had to do around 3 hours of school work which was nice. i texted Robyn a bit more and then had dinner. after dinner we all watched a movie, cartoons to be specific. we headed into our rooms and got ready for bed. i sent one last message to Robyn before falling back asleep.