missclick || hyunsung 『english 』

forty-two

When he decided to go where Felix wanted him to, he didn't know what was happening in Hyunjin's mind. He also had no idea what was waiting for him next to the class to which he was supposed to go. And if he knew what happened after he left Hyunjin alone, he probably wouldn't react at Felix's request. It all would be easier and his fatally enchanted heart wouldn't hurt.  But on the other side, the lies wouldn't stop then.

Because Hyunjin knew everything. And maybe Jisung didn't know, how much he was hurting Hyunjin right knew, but he also didn't know that Hwang was also near to cry. Hyunjin was slowly combining facts. He realised he has been writing with his crush for oven a month. Unconsciously he told him all his feelings — even the fact that e liked Jisung so much. And what he got instead? He knew that his crush liked somebody else. He has never felt so bad, so helplessly.

At the same time, Jisung was walking down the hallway, gasping after walking upstairs. He heard his friend's words for the whole time — "Jisung, please, come to class 207, it's important". He didn't know if he was doing right, leaving Hwang alone. He was so afraid of the talk with the older boy that he was able to do anything just to dodge the talk with Hyunjin. And even though Felix's voice was very serious, he listened to him just to avoid the talk with Hyunjin. But if he knew, what Hyunjin wanted to tell him, he probably wouldn't leave him alone.

His heart stopped immediately when he saw that instead of Felix next to the class was standing someone else. He saw Bang Chan, who was bitterly looking for somebody.

And even though he really didn't want to think about it, then he knew, why he saw Chan instead of Felix. At that moment he only wanted to be far away from the Hyunjin, Chan and Felix. He just wanted to be alone, far away from the problems.

At this moment he really wanted to chive his small plan, which appeared in his mind a moment ago. He turned around, having hope that school's president didn't notice him. Unluckily, it wasn't the truth.

"Jisung!" he heard Chan's scream, which caused him to stop his moves. A moment later he saw a blonde boy, smiling nervously. "I'm glad you're here".

Then he felt as Chan's long fingers wrapped around his wrist. Chan drew him into class, closing the door. He couldn't look into older's eyes.

"I wanted to talk with you" the blond-haired started, standing in front of the younger. "I mean, me and Felix, but only I am doing it. Oh god, I'm starting to flounder".

He finally raised his sight, looking at the taller boy. He realised, that he wasn't the only one, who was feeling very nervous. Bang's hands were shaking and he was smiling nervously.

"You want to talk about the arty, don't you?" Jisung whispered. He felt as sweat started to form on his neck.

"Mhm" he mumbled.

"You know everything?" Chan nodded his head. "Please, don't think about me like about a weirdo. It's not like that! I... I..."

And his breath stopped again.

He pressed his hand to his chest rapidly, taking a step back. His back met door. Only panting breath could go past his lips, making him unable to breathe again.  He knew what was happening again.

But at that moment also Chan panicked. His heart started to beat faster. He knew what was happening because Felix told him.

"Hey, hey, Jisung" he said, grabbing younger's arms. "Calm down, everything's fine. If you don't want to, we don't have to talk about it now".

"No, no, I just..." words couldn't go past his mouth. Why those fucking panic attacks had to appear in the worst moments?

"Shh, calm down" the older repeated. "Jisung, look at me" he asked. The younger raised his head tentatively, looking into Bang's eyes. And even though Chan was really stressed, his eyes were calm. "Breathe, slowly" Chan commended, still looking into smaller's eyes.

His breath started to calm down slowly as the school's president was still comforting him. But then the shame started to fill up his whole body. He really regretted what he did a moment ago. Again he wanted to run away from all his problems. Jisung just wanted to forget.

"I'm sorry" Jisung whispered as he started to breathe normally. He looked at his sneakers, which were very interesting at this moment. "I'm such an... emotional and delicate person. I'm so sorry."

"It's okay" the older sighed. "Nothing has happened. Everybody has its weaknesses, me too" he added. "Sorry if I said something wrong. We can talk later if you..."

"No!" the smaller boy interrupted him. "We need to talk, you're right. I just... I want to say everything one more time but on my own. "The blond-haired boy nodded his head. The boy sighed quietly, trying to feel a little bit more confident. "I don't know what Felix told you, but yeah, I've liked you for a long time. Then, at this party, I was dancing with Hyunjin when I saw you two. I don't even know why he wanted to spend time with me at this party. I mean... I was shocked when I saw you and Felix. I don't want you to think that... you know. At that moment I felt hurt, betrayed. You know, I've known Felix for my entire life and I didn't think it could happen" he got a break. "I'm just asking you, don't think about me as a fanatic. I'm not mad at you. Somewhere inside me, I've always known that I'll never be with you. Maybe I was just crushing you, but you know, I'm just a kid living in his own dreams" he laughed, looking at the Bang again. "I hope you understand what I'm talking about."

The blonde smiled widely, leaving his arms open just to hug the smaller boy. Maybe it wasn't right, looking at the situation in which they were, but he felt that he should do this. He knew that it was the only way to cheer up this sensitive, small boy who was standing in front of him. That was the reason why he wrapped his hands around younger's small body, taking off this characteristic beanie from younger's head. He patted his smooth hair, trying to comfort him. 

"You're really just a sweet, pure cutie. You don't even know how much Felix was worried about you" he sighed, laughing a little. Jisung took a step back, looking at the taller. Even though he tried to get rid of his emotions which he gave for Chan, his sweet words and gentle gestures made his heart beat faster. But he had to forget about them because he didn't want to hurt anyone — neither Felix, Chan nor Hyunjin, but unconsciously he was doing right what he didn't want to. "I'm really glad that you accept it because it really means much for me" he explained, drawing his right hand and showing his little finger. "Word up?"

"Word up" he agreed quietly, for a moment lacing their little fingers.

And even though things seemed to go well, it was only the calm before the storm. Because both Chan and Jisung didn't know that Changbin saw them walking out of the class and told Hyunjin about it.

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Okay guys, I don't know how many of you read my note on the profile, so I'm gonna explain this little hiatus ones again. I've got some personal problems right now and also a lot of school work and couldn't translate this chapter at the right time. I sorry and I hope you understand <3