But W Continues...

Chapter 19: Uncontrollable Jealousy

Yeon Na's POV

Remember I said that my countdown had occurred less and how confused I am with this variable? Well to add on to that confusion, it started to occur more now and I'm talking about 2 times more which is scary. It occurs without warning so when I realised it, it was a tad bit too late.

Seo Jun had been hanging around me more. He initiated it first and I just let him. Since he was hanging out with me now, his group of friends started hanging around me too. I would be lying if I said that it was not uncomfortable but after a while, we all got used to it. Seo Jun was the popular senior of the school and as stereotypical as it is his clique were from the school sports team and I used to be in the cheer-leading team when we dated but I quit after the breakup. We all got used to each other to the point where I could just randomly leave when we are together and they would not be offended, knowing that that was how I was now but actually it was cause the countdowns would occur. I did know some of them as they were already friends with Seo Jun when we dated.

Seo Jun knew that we were in good terms again and had a feeling that I have felt lonely so he decided to keep me company. Honestly, he was helping me stay sane. After my break up with Jae Sang, it felt like everything was collapsing. I was still investigating mum's case with a little help from Jeong Uk. He was kind of hesitant at first but I used the fact that I have helped him with many cases before as a way to convince him to help me. I had to investigate by myself without Jae Sang or Hye Rin which was very stressful. I was really close, I could feel it. It felt like the real culprit was around me and I was so close to actually catching him but that makes me wonder. Why did they close this case so soon? Is the real culprit that powerful?

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It was lunch break and I had ran out on Seo Jun and his friends again because the timer had started counting down again. This was the 6th time and it was only lunch time. I had only 4... wait make that 3 syringes left and I hoped that they could last me long enough. I had just come out of the females restroom. I did not feel like going back into the crowded cafeteria so I just head out of the school to a nearby bench under a tree. I sat there and took out my earpiece to listen to music blaring in my ears. I closed your eyes and tilt my head towards the sky. 

"Glad to see you doing it again." Seo Jun stated with his face appearing in front of my face immediately when I open my eyes. Surprisingly, I could hear his words through the loud music or was he shouting?

I took off my earpiece and sat up straight while he walked over to sit beside me. "You were wrong though." I claimed. "I only do that when I am relieved or when I want to relax."

"Ah... I'm guessing you wanted to relax?" he chuckled staring at me through squinted eyes due to the sunlight. "Also, are you okay? You look kinda pale." he asks with concern as he place a hand over my forehead. I flinched and grabbed his hand removing it before replying, "It's nothing."

He nods in understanding and sighs. That's when I noticed how his smile had looked rather forced. "Is something bothering you?"

He faced me with a blank face but his eyes did not meet mine. They were rather in thought. He puffed a breath out before finally meeting my eyes.

"So just to be sure, we are really really alright now right?" he confirms eagerly which I nod to. "The thing is, I don't dare tell the boys this but there's this someone that I've been into outside of school."

My eyes widen due to his unexpected response. I did not know what to reply with so I just nodded but he didn't carry on so I tried to think of what to say. "Well, why can't you tell err the boys? Aren't yall really like close bonded?"

"Yea we are but this someone is different." he answers nervously.

"Oh come on. I'm sure whoever she is your friends wouldn't judge you for it." I nudge him with my elbow as I try to assure him.