😇 Angel and Devil 😈(Complete)

"Goodbye"

 Beam woke up and breathed heavily.  He held his left chest that hurt. He hasn't had a bad dream for a long time and last night was his worst nightmare, a dream about the past.  He rubbed his face and realized he was crying. Beam looked at the tears stuck in his fingers then realized that he was not in his room. Beam looked away in panic.  He breathed a sigh of relief when he saw Forth was not next to him.  

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 Beam POV

 Past

 I was seven when my parents divorced.  I am not sad. They were only seen together when there was a party or family event so whether they divorced or not, it didn't affect my life very much.  Mae is a fashion designer. She is rarely at home. Most live abroad, Paris, New York, Japan. He returns home only when there is an annual Thailand Fashion Week celebration.  I don't really care. Since I was little, I was used to living alone. Besides, there are helpers who always serve me and I never lack anything because Pho always gives more money than I need.

 I don't know what my father's job is.  He was always busy and always accompanied by two big bodyguards.  When my parents divorced, Pho never again set foot in our house. If you want to meet, then he will meet me at the cafe.  Asking how I'm doing. We don't talk much. He only sends monthly money and gifts when it's my birthday. To me, he is no more than a donor.  

 I met Phana and Kit when we were in middle school.  They are crazy. Even when I don't talk to them, they stick to me.  Phana is a genius but he plays too much. There is always a woman with him.  Whereas Kit is too energetic. Never stop talking. He always worries me more than my mother.

 I was 16 when I realized that I didn't like women.  Not that I hate them. It's just a matter of feeling.  I'm more comfortable with men. And when I told my mother, I could still remember her cold glance when she said that

 "It's okay Beam. Mae will cure you. You will be able to live a normal life," he said.  For her, I've never been normal.

 She sent me to a psychologist for a year.  Although the psychologist said there was nothing wrong with my behavior, my mother would not listen.  I attend boring sessions with psychologists every week. Until finally Mae gave up. Even psychologists are unable to change my feelings.

 When I entered college, I decided to get out of the house and live alone.  Besides, mom won't like seeing me with a man. Phana and Kit majored in medicine while I majored in Management.  I just want to live a relaxed life. After graduating I was accepted at Commindo. My first company.

 Nobody knew I was gay besides my mother, Phana and Kit.  I did not cover my sexual orientation. If anyone asks then I will answer honestly.  But I did not indulge. I spent the weekend on a bar, far from my neighborhood. One day, my Sales and Market Director accidentally, Daniel Intrakomalyasut, saw me kissing another man at the bar.  I thought he would fire me afterwards. But not. He didn't even say anything. Until one day, when we went on a business trip, when he invited me to drink in his room, he approached me and asked.

"So you are gay?"  with a curious innocent face.  

 I smiled and nodded.

 "Um ... is kissing a guy so exciting?"  he asked.

 I have to admit, his words at that time could make my heart almost fall off.  Daniel is my role model. He is smart, handsome, his thinking is broad, talking to him is so fun.  He is not bossy. A gentle man and considerate of all his men. Too perfect in my eyes. All women love it.  He has never been seen dating any woman. But he is clearly not gay. He was just too busy at work.

 I cleared my throat.  His words left me speechless for a few moments.

 "Want to try it?"  I asked with all the remaining courage.