Luna's POV
We walked back into the house and to Edwins room, Brandon walked in first. I followed behind him, I saw that Kyra, Austin and Nick were sitting on the bed. So I walked over to them and laid on their laps. Kyra began to play with my hair. "Wait I have this audio that would go good with lyrics you came up with Luna" Brandon stood up, practically running out of the room. The rest of us looked at each other and laughed. Edwin and Zion were sitting at Edwins desk. "Geez Luna, your legs are heavy" nick complained. I laughed, "it's called muscle. Something you don't have" I shot back. Everyone laughed expect for Nick. "Yeah whatever Luna" he huffed. Brandon walked in and signaled for me to follow to him. So I grabbed Kyra's hand and followed him to his room. "Wow this more of a studio than a bedroom" Kyra joked. I laughed and sat on his bed. "So I've been working on this for awhile now but I can never find what would work with it. That is until you basically dissed Zion. Besides the point, you should use it" Brandon explained. I looked at him like he was crazy. Kyra gave me a little push towards Brandon. I rolled my eyes and stood next to him, I watched as he set up his laptop. "Okay so lets begin." B said looking at me. I felt my heart was racing, thanks to anxiety. "Umm okay, well let me hear it first." I hesitantly said. He chuckled but played the music. "Hey, I gotta go. Bella needs my help" Kyra said standing up. "Oh uh okay. Text me when you get there. Drive safe" I said hugging her. She smiled, "yes mom, I love you" she said laughing. I playfully rolled my eyes. "Love you too" I replied. She left the room, Brandon and I continued to sit. Just listening to the music. "What if we, I mean sing about both Mya and Zion. Like not name them or anything but most definitely will have something that they clearly did." I said, he nodded his head. Letting me know to continue. "So the idea would be to list the shit they did. Like how you know who only wanted clout and how he used me. It's hard to explain, just uh just replay the music back." I said getting a little flustered. I was really about to make a diss track against Mya and Zion. Sounds kind of childish my maybe this will help me. You know, move on from this and get the closure I need before I move to NYC.
Brandon replayed the music and I closed my eyes, I let whatever came to mind, out. All the emotions I held in for so long just came out. It was like flood gates opening.
(Play the song above for a better visual! And go presave kehlani's new album💓)
"Torn between crying for help
And not letting them see me sweat
But it's certain shit I can't forget
I won't get over it easy
Shit makes me queasy
I am making amends with myself
Forgiving me for loving you
I took a risk loving loudly
Defended you proudly
Ignored all the signs, yeah it's true
And, the immature me
Wishes that I could make it known
That you should be left alone
Don't deserve words or thoughts from me
I can go heal on my own
And, the immature me
Hopes the world sees just who you are, uh
A facade only gets you so far
And I'm bigger than you
So I can't meet you where you are
I'd say your name but you don't deserve recognition
You played the hero but you really are the villain
There ain't a bone in me that wants to spare your feelings
You called me crazy, but it was my intuition
Used me for status and the fame and recognition
It's fucking crazy what they do for recognition
I'd say your name but you don't deserve recognition
I'd say your name but I won't, uh
I got to give myself credit
For loving as hard as I did
I helped you fight your addiction
And change your whole life
Just to find myself played in the end
Ain't no regrets 'cause I'm proud
That my heart was so pure
And I'm never ashamed of my love
Now I'm finding strength in the fact
That you're nothing to me
And I know the things I am above"
When I stopped singing, I opened my eyes and looked over at Brandon. He held a shocked expression, was it that bad. "Sooo?" I nervously asked. "That was fucking dope" I heard from behind us. It caused me to jump a bit, I looked behind us and saw the rest of the boys. "When Austin said you could sing, I didn't think it you could sing like that" Nick said smiling. I laughed and looked over at Austin who had this proud look plastered on his face. I didn't bother looking at Zion, I knew he probably had a million of questions. "It's a good thing I was recording" Brandon said catching my attention. I smiled and began to play with my fingers. A nervous trait of mine. "We have to get that out before Friday" Austin said playing with my hair, more like making it an ever bigger mess. "I I don't know guys.." I said looking down at my hands. I felt Brandon grabbed my left hand. I looked up and made eye contact with him. "Hey it's okay. Don't worry" he said. The boys knew how I get when I worry too much or when I stress out too much. Austin gripped the side of my arm, giving it a light squeeze. Nick quickly distracted Zion by asking about Mya and the baby. Giving me time to calm down. "What if we just record it and you can decide if you wanna release it or not. Okay?" Edwin said leaning down in between Brandon and I. I nodded my head and gave them a smile. I just needed to get away from Zion. As much as I love him, I have to let him go. It hurts to be in the room with someone who doesn't love you back. I stood up, "I uh gotta get home. It's feeding time for Ollie." I spoke up. "I'll drive you" Brandon said closing his laptop. I nodded my head and walked towards his door. "Wait no hugs?" Nick said looking at me. I laughed, walking over to him. "Bye Nicolas" I said I to the hug. I then moved on to Austin then Edwin. I gave Zion an awkward wave and walked out. When Brandon and I walked out of his room I heard Zion ask the boys, "so when did that happen? Brandon and Luna?" I could hear the jealousy and anger in his voice. Mostly the anger. Why would he be mad? I mean after all he made the decision to end all contact with me. There was only a week left until I leave. So this shouldn't even matter to me but it does. I wish it didn't though.
