The Urban Daily

Chapter 18

Ashleigh in the multimedia.

Zeke

"I'm starting to think that Chasity doesn't like me for some reason, do you have any idea why?" I pulled my gaze from the television and looked over at Kali with a slight frown on my face. She wore a small, but noticeable pout and even though you could tell she was seriously bothered by it, I couldn't help but to laugh.

"Why would you think that?" I asked her. "I wouldn't necessarily say that she hates you, but I'm guessing that she just needs some time to get used to you, that's all. Chas isn't used to other females being around me, so that could also be a reason. Besides, she shouldn't have a reason to not like you, you're amazing."

She smiled and tried to hide it, grabbing my bare arm, mushing her face into it. "You're even more amazing..." she mumbled, "But, I just don't want any tension between me and her, you know? I mean, it's not like I'm trying to take you away from her or anything because I'm not and I completely understand that you're her best friend and all. I was just hoping that we all like each other-without having to pretend to-but hey, I guess not?"

I licked my lips and slightly shook my head. I knew for a fact that what she was saying was true, but I for all the reasons known, I didn't want to tell Kali the truth, because hurting her feelings wasn't something I wanted to do and avoiding it was what I was planning on doing for the time being.

There wasn't any doubt in the world that I was really starting to feel Kali. From the moment we really started spending more and more time together, I knew that it was a mistake letting my feelings come into play because I was really starting to like her. She was the first female in years that I've actually liked and had interest in

Chas and I had less than four months left here in Glendale before we would head back to Los Angeles to finish up the last of our promotion for the documentary. The last thing I wanted to do was get attached to someone, knowing that when the time came, I would have to leave them and that's exactly what was happening.

I wasn't exactly sure how Kali felt about me, but if she happened to like me as much as I liked her, then breaking her heart wasn't what I wanted to do. I was feeling her way too much to just up and leave her, but there wasn't really anything I could do but keep our feelings down to a minimum, so that when the time does come, it wouldn't be so bad-hopefully.

"You excited about the premiere? I heard it's coming out in a few months..." Kali then said, lifting her head so that she could look at me. Her blonde curls fell in her face and in a swift motion, I lifted my finger and pushed them to the side.

"I guess you could say I'm excited, for Chasity's sake, but I'm not so sure I'm going to be after we leave. Being on the road traveling was a lot of fun in the beginning and though it still kinda is, I love here, I love being at home with my friends and family, not in a different city every night..." I stressed, running my free hand down my face.

"Then why don't you just stay here? You've been traveling with Chasity for almost four years and I'm sure you want to branch out and do your own thing, right?"

"Yeah, but things aren't that simple with Chasity. I don't want to just bail on her and give her reason to bite my head off."

This wasn't the first time that I've thought about giving up my position as Chas's right hand man to come back home and stay, but at those times that the thought did cross my mind, I had soon figured that it just wasn't the right time and even now, I still didn't feel as if it was my time for a permanent stay.

Kali chuckled before lifting herself off of my chest and crossing her legs Indian style. "Zeke, you're so wrapped up in trying to keep everyone else happy, but what about yourself? If Chasity is really your friend, she would understand and let you do you. She wouldn't hold you back from your dreams, even of you're dreams were staying behind to stay here and do what you want."