Tales of the insoluble dilemma of teenage girls❤️ |✔️

Kayla

The butterfly effect of 2004🦋

Do we sometimes wish we hadn't said the things we said long ago?

Or just hope that you could hop into a time portal to erase that indelible mistake?

One word I said broke the bond between what used to be an inseparable duo

In the year 2004, I had reached the crossroads that would make or mar my fate

That dreadful party is till this day forever etched in my memory

The nightmare replays when I shut my eyes as I relive the images of the red cups and his heated body above me

Because I said yes, I terminated my relationship with my Creator

And my end result was an early offspring without a father

After 16 years, the memory of that party was still fresh in my mind

He was crazy about me after I gave him my consent at the party

They're not wrong when they say love is blind

We dated even though I could clearly see he was stained with immorality

He was a shameless drunk and a molester

But I stuck along because we were the town's most envied love birds

He was a beautiful work of art indeed but that's where his attributes ended

I thought it'd get better since he had quite the sweet tongue which made me melt

When he whispered apologies into my ear after he had in anger hit me with his belt

To this day I wish I had said no at the altar

Then maybe I wouldn't have ended up with a marriage that was totally marred

Maybe I would still have my family to fall back on

By saying yes to an unapproved man I was disowned by my own family

Affirming to him that he was a psycho in need of help must have been the last straw

I still hear the last resounding slap he gave me

Before the drunken driver slammed his car into my husband's body

He left behind a wife who had been only two weeks ahead

16 years ago, I had many goals and ambitions

I had not even dreamt I would end up as an undergraduate and a single mummy

It's funny how the word yes could have such grave repercussions

By going six feet under, he erased the the trance he had put me into completely

I wasn't blinded by our so called love anymore

His absence didn't hurt as much as it did before

Before the devastating decision of 2004,

God was the only person I ever longed for

I thought I was not capable of being loved

When that's all from my Lord I had ever experienced

I cherish our daughter notwithstanding

She makes me strive to be a better person

We can't ever erase the butterfly effect caused by a single blunder of our past

But that doesn't mean He won't offer us a second chance

By grabbing this chance, we invite Him back into our hearts

So that each day will have in store a new blessing for us

Be careful what you say yes to

You never know the consequences that decision will bring you

**stay safe**❤️